about to go to sleep

[jerzsrfer]

Today was an OK day. i went to class. went to dinner with mom (i had lobster and steak), saw my sister, solved a case on my CSI game. and went to wal mart. i didnt have much time to think i guess. thats good sometimes. i've sort of settled into a routine. but i dont really talk to anyone except my parents. and my sister. and sometimes lacey.im hoping maybe tomorrow someone catches my eye that i can talk to. life is getting pretty redundant. i was wondering if anyone out there knows how long my heart is gonna hurt? or how many more times im gonna be a lame ass and call her? i know i need to get my ass over this...but i just dont know how.i still feel so fucked up.

got bruises on my heart...
and sometimes i get dark...

~marissa