do i ever cross your mind...anytime?

[jerzsrfer]

i was having a really good day. and then...i started thinking. about how i rarely can go through the day without crying...about how i want to fall asleep with your arms around me again...about how i would give anything to go back and do things the right way. about how tomorrow you would be picking me up at the airport...and how maybe i would be happy. and then i realize you wouldnt want me there anyways...because you dont even want to talk to me...im trying so hard to give you what you want but i failed again. sometimes im ok...but sometimes im not. im at the point where i can get through a day...unless i hear hoobastank on the radio...then i fall to pieces. i feel so weak. why can't i be strong?
im sorry...
marissa