cool and brisk like a honey crisp
its sunny -- and quite a bite in the house today. its getting colder at night and although i've spent a few months up here before in the winter -- i will be spending more time here this year. it doesn't snow very much and the light is bright when the sky is clear.
i will however be returning to India next month and Ill be clearing out the flat and will no longer keep a long term rental in India. This has been a bit difficult for me to let go because there is so much that i love about india and despite the difficulties in my relationship with Martin -- i was really at peace for the most. My dog dies of epilepsy last monsoon however my cat is still there living with a neighbor. when i turn up he lets out the loudest moaning meow ive ever hear coming from a cat. it breaks my heart but i cant take him out of the jungle. i tried to move him once before and he tried to get back and was lost for a couple weeks. he came back to where i had moved him. he was up a tree moaning. i got him down and he was covered in black dust. I brought him in the house for the night -- planning on returning him immediately to the old house where he was before in the jungle -- and he got himself trapped in the grills of the window -- so had to get him calm enough to pull him out! I got him in a cat carrier the next morning and took him back and there he remains. it took a while to get is shiny coat back. i think he misses me but maybe because i let him sleep in my bed... we found him in a puddle half alive and just sooo tiny. hes a very big cat and does fine in the jungle eating frogs. I miss him.
But chapters must end and new ones begin. grieving is not something im a fan of but it seems it has to be part of the whole process of letting go. Im sure ill go back to india in the future -- and see places i want to see that ive not visited -- but for now i must stay in france for a while and ground myself. I want to learn french and teach english.
ive never seen so many onions as there are in the cevennes -- they are practically free around here so ive learned to make onion soup. And apples. i can bake them in the wood burner -- they're nice with curd. its not so much that the abundance makes them cheap and such -- its more that i am eating whats coming out of the ground or coming from the tree locally as a dietary preference.
We don't have a Whole Foods shop up here in the Cevennes.
i will however be returning to India next month and Ill be clearing out the flat and will no longer keep a long term rental in India. This has been a bit difficult for me to let go because there is so much that i love about india and despite the difficulties in my relationship with Martin -- i was really at peace for the most. My dog dies of epilepsy last monsoon however my cat is still there living with a neighbor. when i turn up he lets out the loudest moaning meow ive ever hear coming from a cat. it breaks my heart but i cant take him out of the jungle. i tried to move him once before and he tried to get back and was lost for a couple weeks. he came back to where i had moved him. he was up a tree moaning. i got him down and he was covered in black dust. I brought him in the house for the night -- planning on returning him immediately to the old house where he was before in the jungle -- and he got himself trapped in the grills of the window -- so had to get him calm enough to pull him out! I got him in a cat carrier the next morning and took him back and there he remains. it took a while to get is shiny coat back. i think he misses me but maybe because i let him sleep in my bed... we found him in a puddle half alive and just sooo tiny. hes a very big cat and does fine in the jungle eating frogs. I miss him.
But chapters must end and new ones begin. grieving is not something im a fan of but it seems it has to be part of the whole process of letting go. Im sure ill go back to india in the future -- and see places i want to see that ive not visited -- but for now i must stay in france for a while and ground myself. I want to learn french and teach english.
ive never seen so many onions as there are in the cevennes -- they are practically free around here so ive learned to make onion soup. And apples. i can bake them in the wood burner -- they're nice with curd. its not so much that the abundance makes them cheap and such -- its more that i am eating whats coming out of the ground or coming from the tree locally as a dietary preference.
We don't have a Whole Foods shop up here in the Cevennes.