Im a hustler homie,you a customer crony,I got some dirt on my shoulda,could you brush it off for me?
So I have been thinking about my last journal entry. And I have already fucked up. I am once again worrying about boys, it was a good day and half not worrying about them. But its back to the old me, and I fucking hate it. I have been wanting to post a blog for the past two days. I really need to vent, I just haven't had the time. I don't even really know where to begin.
Everyone has been busy with their significant other lately, or they have just been to busy to talk to me. So I haven't really gotten to talk to anyone, besides the same bs convo of small talk. It sucks. I mean I never really noticed how much I need my friends. There is just so much going through my head..if you only knew.
And I can't help but think that we are somehow drifting apart. You just seem so busy now. You have so much going for you. And I am happy for you, I really am..but there just isnt anytime for me, and it makes me sad. I know that I shouldn't be mad at you, but I am. Maybe I am not mad at you, just mad about the situation. I know it isn't your fault. It just sucks is all. Its almost like I am jealous because I am not the one you are hanging out with.
Its just complicated.
ugh
i dont know.
im not even in the mood to write anymore.
maybe later.
its going to be a long night.
Everyone has been busy with their significant other lately, or they have just been to busy to talk to me. So I haven't really gotten to talk to anyone, besides the same bs convo of small talk. It sucks. I mean I never really noticed how much I need my friends. There is just so much going through my head..if you only knew.
And I can't help but think that we are somehow drifting apart. You just seem so busy now. You have so much going for you. And I am happy for you, I really am..but there just isnt anytime for me, and it makes me sad. I know that I shouldn't be mad at you, but I am. Maybe I am not mad at you, just mad about the situation. I know it isn't your fault. It just sucks is all. Its almost like I am jealous because I am not the one you are hanging out with.
Its just complicated.
ugh
i dont know.
im not even in the mood to write anymore.
maybe later.
its going to be a long night.