Today
So much is going on today. It was two years ago today that I experienced the worst pain I think I have ever felt. It was the day that my best friend in the world was taken from me. Jody was a light in this world that drew people to her. One that when you seen her you wanted to be near her to be a part of her life. One that you knew if you needed a shoulder to cry on she was the one you could run to. Today as I look back on what her life meant I am reminded just how much her life continues. When the people who love her think of her talk of her and remember her. As time goes on we cope better we dont hurt as much but the pain of her loss will never go away. The life that she lived was one that she was happy with in the last few days I had with her I was able to see first hand her happiness. The day she married her love. It was a day never to forget. It's not everyday that you are able to see happiness and love be fulfilled for the person you care most about. I had the pleasure of seeing it for two people. Days that will never be forgotten. So as I look on her life and the way things happened I know that she is a soul that will never be forgotten and a person who has touched my life unlike any other.
This day also bring sadness because it was the due date for my twins that I lost in June due to a miscarriage. Even though I was unable to give life to them they impacted my life in such a profound way. I will always have an emptiness in my arms and my heart for them but know that they are being taken care of by people who love them.
Loss is difficult no matter what kind. I hope and pray that if you have experienced loss that one day you will be able to heal and remember the good that the person/people have brought to your life. That's what I try to do is to remember the best in all things and move forward. Never forgetting but moving on. Much love to you all.