Princess Diaries
So today has been spent babysitting and watching the Princess Diaries with a 4 year old, as I was yesterday....then going into the office at 4:30 and staying until all the bosses were gone. I'm a bit tired of working a lot, but it's weird because if I wasn't kept busy with work then I'd probably not really be able to be at home and it seems like being social always costs money. What a catch 22. So, I work.
I just keep praying Michael will be offered a job by his father in the spring. Ah, to only have one of us on a strange work schedule. It would be so lovely.
He got spit on by a 'guest' (remember he works night audit desk manager at the holiday inn). He is hating the job most of the time now. I hate to admit it, but I keep zoning out and thinking about other things as he goes on and on and expresses his anger verbally by saying he'd like to do this.....(horrific physical harm)..... and that.....(awful emotional/verbal harm) to guests and coworkers. I know it's because he is really hating himself because he is stuck in this dead end job. Every once in a while he confirms that he really would never do any of these highly creative and super scary things he spouts off about, thank goodness. I get tired of it. I told him the other day that I don't feel like I have any 'hottness' left and I feel old, fat, and ugly. He took it personally of course. So, last night he seemed to be trying to be nice to me and actually sat by me on the couch and cuddled. That was soooo nice. I crave that. I told him so. It's wierd because with our on-again-off-again relationship the courtship period kept going and going and now that it is definitely over I miss it a lot. The attention, the lust, and the need to attend to my needs....and me to his too. I think I'm happy with things though. For the most part, yes, content. One thing I know for sure...I love him.
I just keep praying Michael will be offered a job by his father in the spring. Ah, to only have one of us on a strange work schedule. It would be so lovely.
He got spit on by a 'guest' (remember he works night audit desk manager at the holiday inn). He is hating the job most of the time now. I hate to admit it, but I keep zoning out and thinking about other things as he goes on and on and expresses his anger verbally by saying he'd like to do this.....(horrific physical harm)..... and that.....(awful emotional/verbal harm) to guests and coworkers. I know it's because he is really hating himself because he is stuck in this dead end job. Every once in a while he confirms that he really would never do any of these highly creative and super scary things he spouts off about, thank goodness. I get tired of it. I told him the other day that I don't feel like I have any 'hottness' left and I feel old, fat, and ugly. He took it personally of course. So, last night he seemed to be trying to be nice to me and actually sat by me on the couch and cuddled. That was soooo nice. I crave that. I told him so. It's wierd because with our on-again-off-again relationship the courtship period kept going and going and now that it is definitely over I miss it a lot. The attention, the lust, and the need to attend to my needs....and me to his too. I think I'm happy with things though. For the most part, yes, content. One thing I know for sure...I love him.