Scratch that
I hate when shit makes no sense. LOL Kidding.
You know what really bugs me, though? My new freaking paranoia. I can thank the ex for that. Why can't I just trust that things are as people say they are? Why do I have such a distrust of people's good intentions? I know deep down that not everyone is out to get something...but for some reason that part of my brain is disconnected. Always waiting for the other shoe to drop...for something to go wrong...and well, I'm just a whackjob. hahaha
Where did this come from? A business associate said I have piercing eyes and was asking all these personal questions about me. To me. And in the back of my head, all I could think of was WHY does she want to know? What is she up to? Duh...most likely just making conversation. Yeah. Totally. Fucking. Paranoid.
Not all people are bad. Not all people are users. Not all people pick you up to watch you fall. I am fully aware of this...but why is my first instinct to think I am about to get stomped on?? hmmmmmm...
You know what really bugs me, though? My new freaking paranoia. I can thank the ex for that. Why can't I just trust that things are as people say they are? Why do I have such a distrust of people's good intentions? I know deep down that not everyone is out to get something...but for some reason that part of my brain is disconnected. Always waiting for the other shoe to drop...for something to go wrong...and well, I'm just a whackjob. hahaha
Where did this come from? A business associate said I have piercing eyes and was asking all these personal questions about me. To me. And in the back of my head, all I could think of was WHY does she want to know? What is she up to? Duh...most likely just making conversation. Yeah. Totally. Fucking. Paranoid.
Not all people are bad. Not all people are users. Not all people pick you up to watch you fall. I am fully aware of this...but why is my first instinct to think I am about to get stomped on?? hmmmmmm...