My life enters a new Era and I begin to grow....
So where should I begin? Oooooh I know...
HAPPY FLIPPIN NEW YEAR!!
Okay now that out of the way....
Life has been interesting for me for the last two weeks. Is it my new found confidence in myself for being on my own? I don't know. I don't have a guy holding me back? That might be it. Or the fact that I am ready to mingle at any moment. I just feel a lot better by myself. Maybe I needed the break up from Matt more then he needed a break from me. Either way I am enjoying life. I am getting out meeting interesting guys and just having fun.
Let's start off with club Hell... I went the other Wednesday. I had an amazing time! Yes. I miss going there so much. Although I won't be driving out there every week, but maybe two or three days out of the month, depending on work. It'll depend on how my love life goes. I missed seeing Amy and the rest of the hell crew. Its really a great place as long as you over look the fetish wear, crazy dancing, and all the other crazy stuff. I really wished I went to bickfords with them, but since my accident I haven't gone back to that exit. We'll see.
Up next. Alex. Nothing is going to happen between him. Although he turns me on like nothing else. He just has different things going on for him then I do. He needs someone in NY and I need someone for me here. He's just a "mess around" kind of guy when we both are lonely. I mean I'd love to be in a relationship with him, but certain things are in the way. So a friendship is all I am getting from him. Which is still great. Until then...no relationship with him.
The other day I met Andrew on myspace. Some of you may know him, some might not. He's a nice guy, but pretty quiet. We talked on the computer and on the phone for a while. Then today I met him. I picked him up at work and we hung out all evening. He was quite shy I'd say and he wasn't much of a talker. Although he does seem to show an interest in me, but I don't know where I stand with him. When I dropped him off though he did kiss me. So *shrug* I'd have to ait a while before I figure out if I'd like to date him. Not sure if he is really my type. I'm too loud for a quiet boy!
Then there is Matt still. Who wanted me so badly to be his friend, but he hasn't talked to me in a while. I'm okay with talking to him and everything. I don't care what happened between us. I know he's moving on and have other girls after him, but I don't care really. Of course I'll be pissed if he gets another girlfriend anytime soon just cause of his reasons for breaking up with me. Otherwise I think we're cool.
Alrighty...love life and love matters are done with! Not too much...Just the usual you know. So as of 12:00 Jan. 1st 2006 I made a few resolutions. I posted them on myspace, but I'm putting them up here for all to see.
1. Save my money! This is a big one because over the last year I just spent money on anything I wanted. Yeah its nice, but I want new things and even an apartment!
2. Not to let the male species bother me. Lol. I put it in that way because I've had a lot of drama with guys this year. I want that to change. I want to look at it better with whoever I get romantically involved with. If anyone this year.
3. Get out more. Since I have vacation time this year at work. I am using it to my full potential. Possibly leaving the country for a trip? Something besides driving to Rhode Island or Mass. I need an adventure.
4. Improve my work and school habits. I am pretty dedicated now, but I should become more so. Shoot for all A's at school. Try to get into another department at work...just to gain experience. Or possibly head cashier manager position?
5. Make more time for family and friends. 2005 I've been so distant. This year I don't want to.
So I already have number four in the works. I just got asked to go into Bakery because I told Christine that I was interested. So YAY! That also means Saturdays and Sundays are difinite days that I am working for bakery if Andrew H. allows me. I'm excited because it means I'm growing. Actually I've been doing pretty good with my resolutions. I'm already planning a New York trip for spring break or over the summer. I am not sure yet.I'd be staying at Alex's apartment actually.
So I think 2006 is the year for big changes in my life. We'll see how everything goes...now I am off to do things like nothing! :) Good night.