What is LiveJournal doing?
I logged on for the first time since my last post, and I was really confused. I think I like it, but I'm not sold.
So I have been working full hour days taking care of the toddlers and I love it! It's exhausting, but it's lovely. The only downside is the few hours every night that I get at home. I have to leave my house between 11 and 11:30 a.m. Monday-Friday, and depending on what time V and/or R get off work, I might not get home until 8:30 p.m. That's really not a problem for me, and I get to sleep in usually which is great! When I come in though, I'm exhausted and I still have to do a few hours of school every night. I do get a full weekend though. Bonus: I'm almost through my first year of my Associate's Degree! I'm in my last set of classes now.
I'm feeling really unappreciated lately. Don't get me wrong, V does wonders at making me feel like I mean something important. She's constantly telling me that she couldn't manage without me, and I know that she couldn't. My family, immediate family, make me feel like I'm still the person I was at this time last year. I was a spoiled, entitled brat then, who hadn't worked a full day in her life. I was lazy and selfish, and that's not who I am anymore. Something finally clicked for me, and I've been maturing for while. I just wish they would stop comparing me to who I was, and see me for who I am now. I'm really uncomfortable talking about feelings so they don't know what I'm feeling. I feel like I'd be a burden if I tell them that.
So I have been working full hour days taking care of the toddlers and I love it! It's exhausting, but it's lovely. The only downside is the few hours every night that I get at home. I have to leave my house between 11 and 11:30 a.m. Monday-Friday, and depending on what time V and/or R get off work, I might not get home until 8:30 p.m. That's really not a problem for me, and I get to sleep in usually which is great! When I come in though, I'm exhausted and I still have to do a few hours of school every night. I do get a full weekend though. Bonus: I'm almost through my first year of my Associate's Degree! I'm in my last set of classes now.
I'm feeling really unappreciated lately. Don't get me wrong, V does wonders at making me feel like I mean something important. She's constantly telling me that she couldn't manage without me, and I know that she couldn't. My family, immediate family, make me feel like I'm still the person I was at this time last year. I was a spoiled, entitled brat then, who hadn't worked a full day in her life. I was lazy and selfish, and that's not who I am anymore. Something finally clicked for me, and I've been maturing for while. I just wish they would stop comparing me to who I was, and see me for who I am now. I'm really uncomfortable talking about feelings so they don't know what I'm feeling. I feel like I'd be a burden if I tell them that.