stripped of my rights
i miss my life in new york. all my friends right down the hall. no worries about cars or gas or anything. i miss talking to people! constantly doing things, having fun. its not that i'm not happy here because i am i just don't feel normal here anymore. before this was my home and despite the bitching it was all i really ever knew. but now i know so much more and have met so many profound figures in my life. i find myself bored constantly if i'm alone. that why i'm getting a kitten! and naming her anchovy! it's just sad that even when i moved out i couldn't say, "see ya next year" because for the most part i won't. UGH THIS TOWN TORMENTS ME. i think i just need to see my friends more instead of sulking in my room haha AND a job. jesus christ i need a job. WOE IS ME. oh yeah and having to pretend i don't smoke has never been fun. I MISS FREEDOM. it's especially hard when all i can think about is him and what he's doing and how he is.