Rambling
So I was thinking.. maybe "talking" to someone isn't a bad thing, with all my stress and problems, I think maybe it could make me feel so much better instead of keeping everything inside and then just like having breakdowns.
My dad's birthday is tuesday...
I think I might go out to the cemetary and just think and idk. It's been real difficult for me to go out there.. but its been 3 years.. and i think its about time to go out there. Hopefully I'll make it out there, I'll probably end up getting to afraid or something. I hate how my life has changed so much, and I'm just now catching up on things and opening my eyes to the world. I've grown up alot, experiencing new things.. and I think about it, I wouldn't be doing half the shit I'm doing now if he was here. I miss him alot, but I know hes in such a better place and not hurting anymore. But if I could go back to those last 3 months, I would spend EVERY minute with him, be there when he took his last breath, telling him I'm the luckiest girl to have a wonderful father like him, I would. I wouldn't run away & hide, scared to face the truth that I would never see him again.
Here's to a wonderful spring break : )
My dad's birthday is tuesday...
I think I might go out to the cemetary and just think and idk. It's been real difficult for me to go out there.. but its been 3 years.. and i think its about time to go out there. Hopefully I'll make it out there, I'll probably end up getting to afraid or something. I hate how my life has changed so much, and I'm just now catching up on things and opening my eyes to the world. I've grown up alot, experiencing new things.. and I think about it, I wouldn't be doing half the shit I'm doing now if he was here. I miss him alot, but I know hes in such a better place and not hurting anymore. But if I could go back to those last 3 months, I would spend EVERY minute with him, be there when he took his last breath, telling him I'm the luckiest girl to have a wonderful father like him, I would. I wouldn't run away & hide, scared to face the truth that I would never see him again.
Here's to a wonderful spring break : )