Revelations at Last!
its done!
im done!
its over!
im over it!
im not burdened by what could have been any more
i dont take anything back. what happened is what was supposed to happen...
i dont believe that god has a plan for me.. but i do believe that every choice you make has roads that lead off it and there is no getting lost... yes, there are so many options for what roads to take, but all you can do is let it happen and you will be led the path you are supposed to take.
he chose his roads and now i must choose mine. i cannot turn back. i wont. its not meant to be. and if it is, whatever it is, then we will find peace somewhere [over the rainbow]
ive said it a thousand times - i wish i could control time, edit my life into the best feature film, all the crap deleted... but im really at a new point of revelation - its junior year all over again! i am in control again. and though i do have options to make choices similar to the ones i took that fateful year... i have seen where those roads lead and im ready for new roads, and i will never turn back down those old roads. its a new year, a new day, a chance at a new life... im so full of life and its what ive been needing..
all apologies to those who ive hurt in this long process of I TOLD YOU SO
my family, his family
my friends, the TRUE ones
my teachers, my counselors
im sorry
i cant take it back and i cant promise it will never happen again, but i have learned from my choices - and no, they were not mistakes!
there is still only one thing that i will regret for my whole life and you all know who and what it is.. those 10 minutes can never be taken back.
we had an amazing thing in our control, bill, and we lost it... we let go of it... i pushed and you pulled us apart. "i cant say i blame you, but i wish that i could"
its over
im not going to drive my self crazy, i will never drive down chicatobot road to see if chrissy is there, i will burn the remaining items in my car that ive been saving
my dreams of the homecoming are never going to happen.
My favorite song is "somewhere over the rainbow"
and college is my chance to see, taste, and feel oz with all of my heart
but there will never be a place like home, though i have had many, i know my true home now and ill never leave it for a second.
i will never ever let anyone undermine me, put me down, ABUSE me ever again.
there is no more war to be fought
i will never put my life on hold for anyone ever again. my life is happening NOW not paused and then played at anyones convenience.
i dont know where i will be by the end of november... but i know it will not be passed out on the floor with a bottle of rum and pills down my throat. i have my vices but i have help to keep me in check.
i have outstanding trust and dignity to maintain damn it! haha
good nite
good bye.
♥
im done!
its over!
im over it!
im not burdened by what could have been any more
i dont take anything back. what happened is what was supposed to happen...
i dont believe that god has a plan for me.. but i do believe that every choice you make has roads that lead off it and there is no getting lost... yes, there are so many options for what roads to take, but all you can do is let it happen and you will be led the path you are supposed to take.
he chose his roads and now i must choose mine. i cannot turn back. i wont. its not meant to be. and if it is, whatever it is, then we will find peace somewhere [over the rainbow]
ive said it a thousand times - i wish i could control time, edit my life into the best feature film, all the crap deleted... but im really at a new point of revelation - its junior year all over again! i am in control again. and though i do have options to make choices similar to the ones i took that fateful year... i have seen where those roads lead and im ready for new roads, and i will never turn back down those old roads. its a new year, a new day, a chance at a new life... im so full of life and its what ive been needing..
all apologies to those who ive hurt in this long process of I TOLD YOU SO
my family, his family
my friends, the TRUE ones
my teachers, my counselors
im sorry
i cant take it back and i cant promise it will never happen again, but i have learned from my choices - and no, they were not mistakes!
there is still only one thing that i will regret for my whole life and you all know who and what it is.. those 10 minutes can never be taken back.
we had an amazing thing in our control, bill, and we lost it... we let go of it... i pushed and you pulled us apart. "i cant say i blame you, but i wish that i could"
its over
im not going to drive my self crazy, i will never drive down chicatobot road to see if chrissy is there, i will burn the remaining items in my car that ive been saving
my dreams of the homecoming are never going to happen.
My favorite song is "somewhere over the rainbow"
and college is my chance to see, taste, and feel oz with all of my heart
but there will never be a place like home, though i have had many, i know my true home now and ill never leave it for a second.
i will never ever let anyone undermine me, put me down, ABUSE me ever again.
there is no more war to be fought
i will never put my life on hold for anyone ever again. my life is happening NOW not paused and then played at anyones convenience.
i dont know where i will be by the end of november... but i know it will not be passed out on the floor with a bottle of rum and pills down my throat. i have my vices but i have help to keep me in check.
i have outstanding trust and dignity to maintain damn it! haha
good nite
good bye.
♥