I promise you this love will never die
Title: I promise you this love will never die chapter 1/3
Author: jenniiero
Beta: -
Genre: fluffy
Pairing: Gerard/ Lindsey, Mikey/Alicia, Frank/Mikey, Frerard
Fandom: MCR
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: language
chapter 1.
“… I don’t love you like I did yesterday”, Gerard sang the last words of the song on the stage. Those words hurted me like hell from inside. I was playing my guitar on Gerard’s left side and tried not to cry in front of fans and band. I knew that the song was about me. Gerard and I had a secret relationship, before Gerard found Lindsey, his girlfriend. No one else never knew about us, except Gerard’s brother Mikey, to who I was told about us. I knew that I could trust Mikey. I knew that he wouldn’t tell about us to anyone. He could keep the secret. I never really liked Lindsey, mostly maybe because she stole Gerard from me.
I moved closer to Gerard on the stage, as always. We always had our own show on stage. It made fans go crazy. I pressed my lips against Gerard’s neck causing the hysteric screaming by our fans and Gerard get out of words. I grinned to the reaction I caused.
Too soon Gerard poked me out of himself and I stayed pretty close to Gerard to play my guitar. I felt myself betrayed and sad. Gerard had never pushed me away from him before. Lindsey had ruined my life and I really hated her. I had always hated, I hated at the moment, and probably I will always hate her.
Finally the gig ended and we walked away from the stage. I really loved being on stage, but now I was kind of happy that it was over.
“Gee…? I need to talk to you”, I said quietly, almost whispering.
“You can go ahead to the tour bus. We come soon”, Gerard said to rest of the band.
When rest of the band has gone away from the door, Gerard guided me to the leather sofa of the backstage and looked me awaiting.
“ Why did you push me away from you on the stage?” I asked quietly. I sounded sad, which I was.
“Lindsey doesn’t like out show on stage”, Gerard answered.
“What Lindsey has anything to do with this? And what about fans? They’re really hoping to see some Frerard”, I asked.
“I really love Lindsey. I don’t want to anger her. Those fans, who go to our gig just to see some Frerard, aren’t real fans. Real fans go to gig for our music”, Gerard answered and tried to avoid my eyes.
“Lindsey has never really liked me. She’s just jealous for our stage show”, I explained to Gerard.
“Don’t be silly. I’m sure, that she likes you”, Gerard said.
“I’m not! I know that she don’t like me! You just can’t see it”, I said.
“Let’s go, that we can move on”, Gerard said and stood up. I grabbed on Gerard’s hand.
“Gerard.. You can’t realize how much it hurts me when you sing I don’t love you. I know that it’s about me”, I said.
Gerard turned around and looked at me. I gazed deep into his eyes.
“You still haven’t got over me”, he sighed and turned his eyes from me.
“I will never get over you. Gerard, I love you”, I said.
“I love you too. As a friend” Gerard answered and started to walk to the door.
Tears started to drop on to my cheek.
I felt Gerard’s hand grabbing my hand and pulling me up. He hugged me and I cried against his shoulder. When I got my tears to end, we started to walk to the tour bus.
Mikey looked me worried when I came in to tour bus after Gerard. He obviously noticed that I had cried. I don’t did Ray or Bob, the rest of our band, notice it,but at least they didn’t say anything.
“Frank… Would you like to talk with me?” Mikey asked. I nodded.
Mikey leaded me to the back of the tour bus.
“So.. What were you talking about?” Mikey asked.
I explained shortly what we talked to Mikey.
“So you told him that you still love him?” Mikey asked. I nodded and let the tears fall again.
“Gerard loves me only as a friend. Or at least he won’t admit that he loves me more than a friend. I don’t love you is obviously about me”, I said.
“You can’t even guess how much it hurts when he sing that song on the stage”, I said and cried against to Mikeys shoulder.
“Yeah, I can’t know that, but I can believe that it hurts”, Mikey said and wrapped his arms around me.
“I think I’ll go to sleep now”, I said and went to my own bunk.
I woke up when someone was trying to woke me up by shaking me and saying my name. I opened my eyes and saw Mikey.
“Good morning, sleepyhead. We stopped and I was thinking if you wanted to go outside for a moment”, Mikey said.
“Thanks, but I’m not going”, I muttered.
“Okay”, Mikey said and turned away.
“Thanks!” I said for him.
“About what?” Mikey asked amazed.
“About that you listened to me yesterday”, I answered and smiled a bit. I felt much better when I got to talk with some one about my feelings. Mikey smiled me back.
“No problem”, he said.
“I feel much better now”, I told him.
“It’s nice to know that I’m useful”, Mikey said and smiled at me.
I got out of my bunk and walked to Mikey.
“You’re very important for me”, I said and hugged Mikey.
“You’re very important for me too”, Mikey whispered in my ear. I snickered. I hasn’t snickered for a long time.
“I haven’t heard you to snicker for a long time”, Mikey told and I heard from his voice that he was smiling.
“I haven’t done that for a long time, but it’s nice that you can make me do that”, I said.
Then something weird happened. I felt Mikey’s lips against mine. The kiss was soft. I automatically moved my hands behind Mikey’s neck.
“Sorry”, Mikey said after the kiss.
“It’s okay. It actually felt really nice”, I said and smiled for Mikey. Mikey smiled back for me and pressed his lips against mine again. This time the kiss was braver than the first one.
Later at night I sat in my bunk thinking about things. I knew that deep deep inside Gerard still loved me more than a friend, even he said that he didn’t love me anymore. He just didn’t want to admit it because he had Lindsey. I wasn’t blind. I saw when he wasn’t telling me the truth.
I didn’t know what Mikey was thinking when he kissed me. I liked Mikey really much, but only as a friend.
“Frankie…”, Mikeys quiet voice says my name from the door.
I look at him awaiting.
“What did those kisses really mean to you?” Mikey asked
“I’m not angry if you say that they didn’t mean anything to you. Really. I just want to know what you think about them”, Mikey continues before I say anything.
“Mikey.. I can’t say that I didn’t liked them, but I love Gerard and they didn’t mean anything to me. I hope they don’t ruin our friendship”, I answered.
“They don’t ruin anything. Actually I’m relieved. I liked them very much too, but what the fuck would I said to Alicia?!” Mikey asked and laughed. I laughed too.
“So… We’re fine?” Mikey asked. I nodded.
“Of course we are”, I answered smilingly and hugged Mikey. Mikey smiled at me.
Next day I tried to talk to Gerard again.
“Gee? Can we talk for a moment?” I asked.
“In private”, I continued when I noticed rest of the band too.
“Yeah.. We were just going. Somewhere, Mikey said and leaded Ray and Bob away.
“Gerard.. What do you mean that you don’t love me anymore? Where did it disappear?” I asked. Love can’t just disappear, right?
“Frankie.. Things change. I’ve explained this for you like thousand times. I found Lindsey and understood that I don’t love you anymore the same way than before”, Gerard answered. I wanted to cry again, so I turned away and went into my bunk. In my bunk I let the tears drop again. Memories came into my mind.
“Frankie… I think that we shouldn’t be together anymore”, Gerard said quietly melancholy look on his face.
“What?! Why? Have I done something wrong? Gee, tell me!” I asked in panic. I didn’t want to lose Gerard, the man I loved more than anything.
“It’s not about you. I’m sorry, Frank. I just…. met one girl, who I really like and I realized that I don’t love you the same way anymore. I’m really sorry, Frankie”, Gerard answered.
Tears ran along my cheeks. This couldn’t be true, Gerard would be again just a friend for me.
“I reallt love you now and I will always love even if you didn’t love me back”, I whispered and kissed Gerard before I ran away from Gerard, crying. I hoped that I was just seeing bad dream and somebody would wake me up soon, but it never happened.
I heard knocking outside of my bunk.
“Mikey?” I asked. I was sitting in my bunk knees pressed against my chest. Mikey sat next to me and wrapped his arms around my shoulders.
“Tell me what happened. Rest of the band went outside”, Mikey said. I looked at his eyes and started to tell. Once again Mikey whispered comforting words in my ear and after telling everything , I fell asleep against Mikey’s shoulder.
I woke up in my bunk. I didn’t know how long was I sleeping, but I felt that someone was lying next to me. Mikey. I was obviously cried while I was sleeping because my pillow was wet from my tears. I watched the time from my cellphone. It was eight am. bus wasn’t moving, so obviously the driver was still sleeping. I got out of bunk quietly and sneaked out of the room. I tried to not to wake Mikey or anyone up. I took one cigarette from someone’s pack which was lying on the table. I took a lighter from table too and went out of the door.
I stopped to the door immediately when I saw person who was standing in front of tour bus smoking cigarette. Gerard.
I stood in my bedroom in front of 25 years old man, who was my crush and whose band I played guitar. We had own show on stage, but it meant more for me than to him. Or that’s what I thought. The man, Gerard, looked cute in his black clothes. Black, messed up hair framed his pale skin on his face.
“Frank. I should tell you something”, Gerard said and gazed my bedroom floor.
“I like you, Frank. More than a friend. Sorry, but I had to tell”, Gerard said and looked at me. I moved closer to Gerard.
“I like you too, more than a friend”, I answered and pressed my lips against his own.
I came back to reality and gazed Gerard trying to think what to do. I didn’t know did Gerard want my company. Probably not, but I decided anyway let him know that I was there.
I cleared my throat and Gerard turned to look at me.
“Sorry, I stole this cigarette from you”, I said and smiled.
“It’s okay”, Gerard answered
“Gee? Would you stay with me?” I asked when Gerard was stepping into tour bus again. He was already smoked his cigarette and I just lighted my own. Gerard looked at me thinking should he stay or should he go.
“I guess I can stay with you “, he answered.
We stood a while quietly in summer morning.
“Why are you awake this early?, I asked. Gerard shrugged his shoulders.
“What about you?”, he asked so quietly that I almost didn’t hear it
“I just woke up”, I answered. Gerard nodded.
Silence.
“Frank…”, Gerard started.
“Yeah?” I asked.
“Don’t ever drag Mikey in this, even if you were how jealous about me”, Gerard asked.
“What?” I asked amazed.
“I saw when you were kissing”, Gerard said.
“I was just a comforting kiss and we’ve talked about it with Mikey. It didn’t mean anything to either of us”, I told.
“Well, good then. I just checked”, Gerard said.
“Are we going to inside now?” I asked.
“Yeah. Let’s go. I actually have something to tell you all” Gerard said.