Giddy.
Ah well. I am definitly feeling so much better. Zack drove down here yesterday when he was done with classes.
It was really nice out so we walked around, then drove into Bronxville and had JAPANEEEEEESEEE.
We needed some time to each other.
It was really cute, and tres nice.
We watched the Godfather since we've never seen it. I've seen parts, but it was pretty cool.
I have been having a hard time dealing with certain realizations.
He helped me calm my nervousness and helped me realize all the good things.
So I think I'm going to switch to chemistry and go into my mom's field. As much as I love English...
I think once I start down that way it'll be better.
My shoulders are happy. They had a nice massage :)
I just keep laughing about the banana and "pot breath" and onions and garlic.
And buying this random hunk of brie cheese last night.
Someone whom I don't know posted a reply on one of my complaint ridden emo annoying stupid bitchy entries and was trying to help.
But I misread. Being pyshcotic.
And I do need to stick around on the weekends it's just tough.
I am dead serious with my boyfriend, we're more than that.
Not that that makes sense to other people.
I go to his house (home) when my roomate is here, because I feel BADLY
being there. Not that we're slobbering all over each other's faces at all in front of her.
But I feel awkward since she's trying to do homework or what not.
So then we go wander around but still.
I'm used to spending days on end with him, days and nights. So I seek that again.
And now have the freedom for it.
It'll be good though once he starts coming more often.
I do have to try to stay on the weekends.
And it's not about hoemsickness, it's just so many things going on.
With people who go to college near home, and who are home on weekends.
I guess it's hard when you've had the same bunch since you were little.
You can have their friendship still.
Since theyre home, and you're close.
And the more and more I think, the more it is just frustration with my wanting to be on my own with him.
And his frustrations trying to get there.
But I know it'll be ok.
Except I go to so many shows on the weekend, and do so much writing up for them.
It's something I love.
So I am often gone on the weekends.
GRR.
DAMN JERSEY AND ZACK LIVING THERE AND IT BEING SO EASY
TO JUST GO HOME TO JERSEY!!! HAHA.
But it's nice. I need it sometimes.
Whatever. I'll figure it out.
la la la
I am in a really good mood.
Tonight be Weesa's birthday
:-D
I am reading. Well not right this minute, but was.
And my tummy hurts. I am listening to the Fru of course..