(no subject)
Things are a lot better.
I feel like I'm allowed to be happy for once. Things are starting to be beautiful again. I'm starting to really laugh. I'm starting to be interested in my friends, and my health is getting better. I've slept well the last couple nights.
Being at this new school kind of sucks, but it's still better than Richardson. I mean, the people suck just as bad, but it's only 4 hours a day. I listen to my music, I do my work, and I go home and have at least 4 hours to myself, which is really nice. Plus I feel like I'm actually accomplishing something here, and I'm driven to work hard, because the faster I work, the faster I graduate. Once I graduate, I'm free.
I know exactly where I'm going at that point too. =]
I still feel like I only have 1, well, 2 people in the world who I can really relate to, and I can be completely myself with, but that's okay. I have way more than most people, and I'm lucky for that.
You know who you are, and you absofuckinglutely rock my world. I love both of you more than I can say, and I would go to the ends of the earth for you. I just hope I've been able to influence you as positively as you have influenced me.
I really hope this renewed faith in myself/my future/whatever doesn't wear off any time soon. It's kind of nice to believe in yourself.
And to all my other friends, this by no means says I can't trust you or tell you anything. You are all really great to me. I appreciate every single one of you, and you seriously help a lot.
Props to Jense and Chloe, because I don't need to talk drama with you guys to feel better.
On a lighter note, my birthday is soon! I try not to get too excited about these things, but hey, I only turn 16 once, right? I dunno..I think 18 and 21 will be much more exciting.
I feel like I'm allowed to be happy for once. Things are starting to be beautiful again. I'm starting to really laugh. I'm starting to be interested in my friends, and my health is getting better. I've slept well the last couple nights.
Being at this new school kind of sucks, but it's still better than Richardson. I mean, the people suck just as bad, but it's only 4 hours a day. I listen to my music, I do my work, and I go home and have at least 4 hours to myself, which is really nice. Plus I feel like I'm actually accomplishing something here, and I'm driven to work hard, because the faster I work, the faster I graduate. Once I graduate, I'm free.
I know exactly where I'm going at that point too. =]
I still feel like I only have 1, well, 2 people in the world who I can really relate to, and I can be completely myself with, but that's okay. I have way more than most people, and I'm lucky for that.
You know who you are, and you absofuckinglutely rock my world. I love both of you more than I can say, and I would go to the ends of the earth for you. I just hope I've been able to influence you as positively as you have influenced me.
I really hope this renewed faith in myself/my future/whatever doesn't wear off any time soon. It's kind of nice to believe in yourself.
And to all my other friends, this by no means says I can't trust you or tell you anything. You are all really great to me. I appreciate every single one of you, and you seriously help a lot.
Props to Jense and Chloe, because I don't need to talk drama with you guys to feel better.
On a lighter note, my birthday is soon! I try not to get too excited about these things, but hey, I only turn 16 once, right? I dunno..I think 18 and 21 will be much more exciting.