i want you to know that i miss you i miss you so
I don't know what the problem is anymore. I keep scaring the hell out of myself by imagining my characters are real.
i'm sorry I'm tragic at trying to express things like this. Its just that there are always so many things gpoing on at once and its hard to try and get them all out. Sometimes there are some thoughts or some conversations that have been had or dreamed up and to repeat them here and have them read by the wrong person would be tragic. its sort of like a white lie censorship has to be taken into account with everything that i write. thats why there isn't so much going on here usually.
that and i forget to update it.
so as a brief sum-up- the top things that take most of my thinking priority at the moment;
1)The band. Lack of commitment by certain members. worries about other members. worries anbout funds and recording deals and demo cds.
2) Ireland. How much I badly want to go back.
3) Jamie. enough said.
4) My stories. Another has just been started that looks to be interesting. So far we have a main character who i've decided acutally does need a name, so i called her Regan cos it seemed to fit. the way i got this name has nothing to do with the character herself (think murderdolls).
5) My parents, the way I act towards them. they way I treat them. I always worry I'm being to selfish or too secretive or not taking to them properly.
I worry about my brother and my friends, especially Emma and Alex. I'm constantly confused by these people and by many many others.
I'm scaring the hell out of myself, as i mentioned briefly before becuase I keep seeing people like Regan when such a thing shouldn't be possible.
That enough for now?
Oh, the drums are merry. I love joey more than ever and its 2:47 pm here in New Zealand.
i'm sorry I'm tragic at trying to express things like this. Its just that there are always so many things gpoing on at once and its hard to try and get them all out. Sometimes there are some thoughts or some conversations that have been had or dreamed up and to repeat them here and have them read by the wrong person would be tragic. its sort of like a white lie censorship has to be taken into account with everything that i write. thats why there isn't so much going on here usually.
that and i forget to update it.
so as a brief sum-up- the top things that take most of my thinking priority at the moment;
1)The band. Lack of commitment by certain members. worries about other members. worries anbout funds and recording deals and demo cds.
2) Ireland. How much I badly want to go back.
3) Jamie. enough said.
4) My stories. Another has just been started that looks to be interesting. So far we have a main character who i've decided acutally does need a name, so i called her Regan cos it seemed to fit. the way i got this name has nothing to do with the character herself (think murderdolls).
5) My parents, the way I act towards them. they way I treat them. I always worry I'm being to selfish or too secretive or not taking to them properly.
I worry about my brother and my friends, especially Emma and Alex. I'm constantly confused by these people and by many many others.
I'm scaring the hell out of myself, as i mentioned briefly before becuase I keep seeing people like Regan when such a thing shouldn't be possible.
That enough for now?
Oh, the drums are merry. I love joey more than ever and its 2:47 pm here in New Zealand.