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I saw Allen, Tony, Brent, Julie, Josh and got a wall post from Mike. Weird, yet nice, how all these people from my past just poppsied up out of nowhere. (That's right, I said poppsied. Just accept it).
Life is good. I feel I'm finding a rhythm in the in-between. I like it. I'm blessed with semi-steady employment, which also gives me the freedom to work on my room and spend time with my family. I'm blessed with a car again!! WHOO!! Which gives me transportation, and a feeling of freedom (and seems to restore the balance of power here in the home). I'm blessed with small strings of community around here. I would like it to transform into threads, but everything in its time. I'm blessed with good friends (and a boyfriend) in other places who still think of me :) I'm also blessed with the desire to make music again :) YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
In the means of difficulties, I don't know if I can stay at the church I've grown up in. I don't know if our ideals align anymore, and I'm not really known there. I'm also finding that I don't really like being a starter of things..I like being a continuation. I have the opportunity to start a young adult ministry here in East Orlando, but I'm a little nervous to take it because I don't really know what that means. I have an opportunity to start a Bible study, but I'm a little nervous because I don't want to be rejected. (I also do not want to do either of the former without excellence, or (on the other side) be involved in the "cutting edge" ministry). It's nice though, that those are my problems.
I'm by no means comfortable here, but I am comforted. I can be content with the mindset that things aren't permanent. But...I guess if I want to get all "big picture" here, save for God, nothing is, right?
Life is good. I feel I'm finding a rhythm in the in-between. I like it. I'm blessed with semi-steady employment, which also gives me the freedom to work on my room and spend time with my family. I'm blessed with a car again!! WHOO!! Which gives me transportation, and a feeling of freedom (and seems to restore the balance of power here in the home). I'm blessed with small strings of community around here. I would like it to transform into threads, but everything in its time. I'm blessed with good friends (and a boyfriend) in other places who still think of me :) I'm also blessed with the desire to make music again :) YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
In the means of difficulties, I don't know if I can stay at the church I've grown up in. I don't know if our ideals align anymore, and I'm not really known there. I'm also finding that I don't really like being a starter of things..I like being a continuation. I have the opportunity to start a young adult ministry here in East Orlando, but I'm a little nervous to take it because I don't really know what that means. I have an opportunity to start a Bible study, but I'm a little nervous because I don't want to be rejected. (I also do not want to do either of the former without excellence, or (on the other side) be involved in the "cutting edge" ministry). It's nice though, that those are my problems.
I'm by no means comfortable here, but I am comforted. I can be content with the mindset that things aren't permanent. But...I guess if I want to get all "big picture" here, save for God, nothing is, right?