I know..it's late...
Almost done. Six weeks and counting, and I still have "miles before I sleep." There is so much of a feeling of losing the old and learning the new (which is exactly what happens in transition--this I know...)
I'm leaving community, and learning how to find another one. I've applied with Teach for America, and I'm looking into applying a few other places. Even crazier still is I might have an opportunity to stay in DeLand and get paid for it if the teaching thing falls through. Who knows? (I mean, besides the obvious).
I'm leaving a ministry behind. There are others who will assume the same leadership roles, and there are others who will take their place. However, it's strange to think that I started out as this kid who thought she knew everything...and I'm leaving an adult who is learning she doesn't know much about anything except that God is--and that's enough.
I've left...um..single-dom? lol I have a boyfriend who is just...man, great to have as a first boyfriend. I'm having to learn how to relate to someone all over again--but it's great :)
All of this leaving, and all of the new that awaits is...well...just what my last entry said. I still wonder if it's ground or eternity that I'm standing on, but I also rest more assured each day (it grows in micro-sized increments) that I'm standing on trustworthy eternity, and that the tension between the unknown and the known is worth living.
I'm leaving community, and learning how to find another one. I've applied with Teach for America, and I'm looking into applying a few other places. Even crazier still is I might have an opportunity to stay in DeLand and get paid for it if the teaching thing falls through. Who knows? (I mean, besides the obvious).
I'm leaving a ministry behind. There are others who will assume the same leadership roles, and there are others who will take their place. However, it's strange to think that I started out as this kid who thought she knew everything...and I'm leaving an adult who is learning she doesn't know much about anything except that God is--and that's enough.
I've left...um..single-dom? lol I have a boyfriend who is just...man, great to have as a first boyfriend. I'm having to learn how to relate to someone all over again--but it's great :)
All of this leaving, and all of the new that awaits is...well...just what my last entry said. I still wonder if it's ground or eternity that I'm standing on, but I also rest more assured each day (it grows in micro-sized increments) that I'm standing on trustworthy eternity, and that the tension between the unknown and the known is worth living.