hmmm, maybe not?
Okay
then, it seems I may have been a little hastey assuming i would move away. i'm really not sure i could do it, honestly, but i DO need a change, that I am sure of. i think that little voice isn't necessarily telling me that i need ot leave michigan or whatever but it might just be saying that i need to make myself into the person i want to be more... perhaps. i might be reading into it too much, but who knows? i want to TRAVEL more. maybe not far, but i need to go out and get away, you know? kara was talking about this little road trip for the summer and maybe that's something i need. so as long as we hit the mountains, maybe i'll be all right.
i did get a lot of positive response from my last post and i wonder if its not a bad idea, but i just don't know if i could leave everyone and be so far away. i love my ickers, but she is just one friend (even though a very highly rated one at that) and i would miss so many more as well. i remember telling quite a few people that i originally thought two hours from home wasn't so bad but now its a bit too far. so 15+ hours isn't a bit much? we'll see, i AM still young and there's always next year.
that leads to my need for change. i haven't liked "me" a lot latelyl but i think that there are things i can do that will make my life more exciting and hopefully realize i'm not as boring as i always thought, or something. that road trip for one, getting a house, DOING MORE PHOTO PROJECTS (i just did that makes me feel like a photographer again), hopefully get more weddings and perhaps get a part time studio job. this one is serious. i NEED to do that in order to make my life what i want it to be. i think the photo things are the most important step.
so i guess my real new years resolutions are a bit late this year, but the above paragraph will hopefully lead me on to what i want to be. its a good plan, and doesn't require me leaving the state or my job. things are looking up, perhaps.
*JENNA*
then, it seems I may have been a little hastey assuming i would move away. i'm really not sure i could do it, honestly, but i DO need a change, that I am sure of. i think that little voice isn't necessarily telling me that i need ot leave michigan or whatever but it might just be saying that i need to make myself into the person i want to be more... perhaps. i might be reading into it too much, but who knows? i want to TRAVEL more. maybe not far, but i need to go out and get away, you know? kara was talking about this little road trip for the summer and maybe that's something i need. so as long as we hit the mountains, maybe i'll be all right.
i did get a lot of positive response from my last post and i wonder if its not a bad idea, but i just don't know if i could leave everyone and be so far away. i love my ickers, but she is just one friend (even though a very highly rated one at that) and i would miss so many more as well. i remember telling quite a few people that i originally thought two hours from home wasn't so bad but now its a bit too far. so 15+ hours isn't a bit much? we'll see, i AM still young and there's always next year.
that leads to my need for change. i haven't liked "me" a lot latelyl but i think that there are things i can do that will make my life more exciting and hopefully realize i'm not as boring as i always thought, or something. that road trip for one, getting a house, DOING MORE PHOTO PROJECTS (i just did that makes me feel like a photographer again), hopefully get more weddings and perhaps get a part time studio job. this one is serious. i NEED to do that in order to make my life what i want it to be. i think the photo things are the most important step.
so i guess my real new years resolutions are a bit late this year, but the above paragraph will hopefully lead me on to what i want to be. its a good plan, and doesn't require me leaving the state or my job. things are looking up, perhaps.
*JENNA*