let's see how far we've come...
okay so this is weird. got a new little thought into my head and i'm not sure its good or bad. too early to tell. anyways, so i've always had this little voice that pops up at the most odd times that seems to say to me "get away, jenna. be adventurous and move somewhere new, somewhere far" (and here the voice usually adds "somewhere warm"). i'm young and not too tied down yet so of course this is the only time in my life i may ever have to do this. who's to say i would stay, i probably would just go scratch the itch and come back but then again... who knows?
you see, i'm such a homebody. as much as i LOVE being independent, its nice to know that home is no more than 2 and a half hours away, that i could see my sister just about any time and that i have close friends in the immediate vicinity. not too mention my job offers a level of financial and medical security that is hard to let go of. but do i really see myself photographing wood for the next 10 years of my life just because i feel safe in my position and i like the people who work there? i don't really think so.
so am i seriously considering this? you konw what? kind of i am. jessica and i were talking and she was telling me the places she knows teachers are needed. right now she's alone in florida to do her student teaching, but she said she'd like to go further north or maybe even to the carolina's (or even BETTER, virginia, where i'd LOVE to go). i am not going to kid myself because i know that no matter what that little voice says, i couldn't do this alone. so the fact that ica is already there and doing her thing makes it that more possible...
but i think about what i'd be missing. yes, everyone is still internet access and a phone call away but i really do crave physical closeness at times. i would miss my parents so much (although they could come by when they road trip with the bikes down to ocala) and my grandparent's too. losing close proximity to kara would be SO hard. not too mention my friends still in harrison, judy and alan. i'm so used to seeing them on a regular basis, i'm not sure what i would do. and there's kristin and jesse and angie and maria... my other friends from around here... however, that leads me to think that if i'm with ica, who would want to come home sometimes as well, she and i could split the cost of gas to drive back home. it wouldn't be often we'd see our families, but it would make things much easier that way. and i could still come up to do the possible weddings i have from people at home, couldn't i?
what about a job? i'd miss dooge for sure, it was my "big break" in a sense and i love the people, but i was talking to josh last night about how i really need to go to a studio type place and work because that's what i want to do with my life. this would take me out of my comfortable job and put me into a situation where i have to do what i want to do. i wouldn't have an excuse not too look for work in a studio because, well, where else would i look? it would be a step toward what i want anyways.
this whole thing is give and take. knowing me i'll chicken out, but once being young is over... its over. i'll get tied down to a house someday and a family (God willing) and then i'll never have this opportunity again. mom went to washington when she was YOUNGER than i am now. ica is doing it, getting out of her comfort zone. if only there were a sign, something to help me. and maybe its too early to consider, too soon to even worry. i'd have to wait until the end of may anyways cuz of our lease here, but its something i'm seriously considering. that voice can be pretty insistant at times... i can't help but wonder...
*JENNA*
PLEASE anyone who reads this, help me out here. am i nuts? i need to weigh the pros and cons! i know there aren't a lot of people on here that read this but you know, anything could help.
you see, i'm such a homebody. as much as i LOVE being independent, its nice to know that home is no more than 2 and a half hours away, that i could see my sister just about any time and that i have close friends in the immediate vicinity. not too mention my job offers a level of financial and medical security that is hard to let go of. but do i really see myself photographing wood for the next 10 years of my life just because i feel safe in my position and i like the people who work there? i don't really think so.
so am i seriously considering this? you konw what? kind of i am. jessica and i were talking and she was telling me the places she knows teachers are needed. right now she's alone in florida to do her student teaching, but she said she'd like to go further north or maybe even to the carolina's (or even BETTER, virginia, where i'd LOVE to go). i am not going to kid myself because i know that no matter what that little voice says, i couldn't do this alone. so the fact that ica is already there and doing her thing makes it that more possible...
but i think about what i'd be missing. yes, everyone is still internet access and a phone call away but i really do crave physical closeness at times. i would miss my parents so much (although they could come by when they road trip with the bikes down to ocala) and my grandparent's too. losing close proximity to kara would be SO hard. not too mention my friends still in harrison, judy and alan. i'm so used to seeing them on a regular basis, i'm not sure what i would do. and there's kristin and jesse and angie and maria... my other friends from around here... however, that leads me to think that if i'm with ica, who would want to come home sometimes as well, she and i could split the cost of gas to drive back home. it wouldn't be often we'd see our families, but it would make things much easier that way. and i could still come up to do the possible weddings i have from people at home, couldn't i?
what about a job? i'd miss dooge for sure, it was my "big break" in a sense and i love the people, but i was talking to josh last night about how i really need to go to a studio type place and work because that's what i want to do with my life. this would take me out of my comfortable job and put me into a situation where i have to do what i want to do. i wouldn't have an excuse not too look for work in a studio because, well, where else would i look? it would be a step toward what i want anyways.
this whole thing is give and take. knowing me i'll chicken out, but once being young is over... its over. i'll get tied down to a house someday and a family (God willing) and then i'll never have this opportunity again. mom went to washington when she was YOUNGER than i am now. ica is doing it, getting out of her comfort zone. if only there were a sign, something to help me. and maybe its too early to consider, too soon to even worry. i'd have to wait until the end of may anyways cuz of our lease here, but its something i'm seriously considering. that voice can be pretty insistant at times... i can't help but wonder...
*JENNA*
PLEASE anyone who reads this, help me out here. am i nuts? i need to weigh the pros and cons! i know there aren't a lot of people on here that read this but you know, anything could help.