I Cant Deal Anymore
I can't get a break. Honestly this shit, I cant take it anymore. Everytime I turn around I am getting fucked and I have no idea what the fuck to do anymore. Just when I think everything is A-OK and caught up and all that shit... it's like God decides, "hey you know what... not so much!" and I get fucked. And I go to my mom crying and not knowing what to do, and what does she go and fucking do??? Gets mad at me and storms out of my apartment and wont even talk to me. What compassion huh? She can find compassion for everyone in the world but when it comes to me, her daughter, she's a fucking bitch.
Maybe I should just take my dad up on his offer and move to Green Bay. Not like I have anything here. I lost the two men I've loved, no money ever, failed out of school. What the fuck do I have here worth sticking around for????? Can't think of one single thing. Everyone would probably be better off without me here anyways -- Mom wouldnt have to constantly be disappointed in me, my friends wouldn't have to hear me whining about how I have no money...
I dont know what to do anymore at all. All I know is that I am absolutely miserable, and I have been for a long time, and no matter what I do, I cant get 100% happy again, I just keep getting kicked back down. So tell me - what the fuck is the point in sticking around here????
Maybe I should just take my dad up on his offer and move to Green Bay. Not like I have anything here. I lost the two men I've loved, no money ever, failed out of school. What the fuck do I have here worth sticking around for????? Can't think of one single thing. Everyone would probably be better off without me here anyways -- Mom wouldnt have to constantly be disappointed in me, my friends wouldn't have to hear me whining about how I have no money...
I dont know what to do anymore at all. All I know is that I am absolutely miserable, and I have been for a long time, and no matter what I do, I cant get 100% happy again, I just keep getting kicked back down. So tell me - what the fuck is the point in sticking around here????