Thanks for asking
So not only did my cousin Emily leave yesterday to go back to Richmond but I got a text message yesterday morning from what I thought was my ex... turns out it was from his phone but his girlfriend (now his wife) informing me "he's married now, thanks for asking" and signed it with her new married name in case there was any confusion....
Now let me start with saying, I've known him since I was 19 years old and he was my first love... I loved him for 10 years, though the feelings are different now, I still do love him just not how it was before. Any how, we managed to stay friends and he was there for me when I lost Andy and didn't want to go on. He basically picked me up off the ground and made me see that I needed to go on with my life...
We had some rough times and I even swore that I would never speak to him again... several times. But everytime we made up and things would be good again. He was my best friend, my brother, my everything. I knew no matter what he would always be there for me, as I would for him. I saved him from trouble more times then I can count, and vice versa. We stayed close and somehow I was starting to just let alot of the baggage go and just let the bad things we had put each other through in the past.
We continued to talk and hang out, even after I found out he was seeing another girl.. I didn't think it would last, given his past. I was wrong. Then one day I talked to him and he told me he loved her. He asked me if I was ok and I was. I honestly was. I was shocked, dont get me wrong.. but I was happy. I told him as long as she didnt hurt him and was good to him, then I was ok with it.
Then one day I called to see how he was, and he wouldn't answer the phone. I didn't think anything of it until a few days later when I realized he hadn't called me back. But still, I didn't really give it another thought. So on and off I would try him, and still he wouldn't call back. About 3 weeks ago I sent him a text message that said "Hey Stranger Danger! How are you? What's new?" He never replied and I forgot all about it.
Which leads us to yesterday. So obviously this idiot woman was going through his phone and decided to take it upon herself to let me know that now he is married, which of course came as a complete and utter shock. I dont get to hear it from him, but I get to hear it from her. And she doesn't even have the balls to call me and say anything, she has to send a text message???? Give me a break. Had this stupid ass bitch bothered to call me I would have been more then happy to let her know who I was and what the situation with me and him is. But instead she has to act like a stupid fucking child and do that. I doubt he knows she did it, at least I hope so. But God help him if I find out he let her do that to me.
What hurts the most is the fact that he did something I never in a million years guessed that he would do this. I guess even though we're done, by my choice, I always thought that somewhere down the road, after all was said and done, all the bullshit, all the bouncing around from one person to another, that he and I would end up... you know. Guess I was wrong.
Everyone tells me that it wont last, if she's going through his phone and texting me that obviously there is no trust there, that she's the stupid bitch who married someone she cant trust, blah blah blah... maybe they are right, maybe it wont last. But then again maybe it will.
None of that makes me feel better though. He's still married, he's not a part of my life anymore. He didn't even want to tell me, that much is apparent. I'm sure he knew I would not be happy, to say the least. But at least I would have heard it from him, and I would have been ok with it. Not right away of course, I'd still be in tears. But I would have taken it better that way, rather then hearing it from some stupid fat, immature little bitch that doesn't even have the balls to call me herself.
I wish him the best of luck, he'll need it apparently. I was willing to give this girl a chance, but not now. If I ever see her, she better pray to god that I am in a good mood.
I know I'll be ok, I'm a strong girl. But right now, not so much.
Now let me start with saying, I've known him since I was 19 years old and he was my first love... I loved him for 10 years, though the feelings are different now, I still do love him just not how it was before. Any how, we managed to stay friends and he was there for me when I lost Andy and didn't want to go on. He basically picked me up off the ground and made me see that I needed to go on with my life...
We had some rough times and I even swore that I would never speak to him again... several times. But everytime we made up and things would be good again. He was my best friend, my brother, my everything. I knew no matter what he would always be there for me, as I would for him. I saved him from trouble more times then I can count, and vice versa. We stayed close and somehow I was starting to just let alot of the baggage go and just let the bad things we had put each other through in the past.
We continued to talk and hang out, even after I found out he was seeing another girl.. I didn't think it would last, given his past. I was wrong. Then one day I talked to him and he told me he loved her. He asked me if I was ok and I was. I honestly was. I was shocked, dont get me wrong.. but I was happy. I told him as long as she didnt hurt him and was good to him, then I was ok with it.
Then one day I called to see how he was, and he wouldn't answer the phone. I didn't think anything of it until a few days later when I realized he hadn't called me back. But still, I didn't really give it another thought. So on and off I would try him, and still he wouldn't call back. About 3 weeks ago I sent him a text message that said "Hey Stranger Danger! How are you? What's new?" He never replied and I forgot all about it.
Which leads us to yesterday. So obviously this idiot woman was going through his phone and decided to take it upon herself to let me know that now he is married, which of course came as a complete and utter shock. I dont get to hear it from him, but I get to hear it from her. And she doesn't even have the balls to call me and say anything, she has to send a text message???? Give me a break. Had this stupid ass bitch bothered to call me I would have been more then happy to let her know who I was and what the situation with me and him is. But instead she has to act like a stupid fucking child and do that. I doubt he knows she did it, at least I hope so. But God help him if I find out he let her do that to me.
What hurts the most is the fact that he did something I never in a million years guessed that he would do this. I guess even though we're done, by my choice, I always thought that somewhere down the road, after all was said and done, all the bullshit, all the bouncing around from one person to another, that he and I would end up... you know. Guess I was wrong.
Everyone tells me that it wont last, if she's going through his phone and texting me that obviously there is no trust there, that she's the stupid bitch who married someone she cant trust, blah blah blah... maybe they are right, maybe it wont last. But then again maybe it will.
None of that makes me feel better though. He's still married, he's not a part of my life anymore. He didn't even want to tell me, that much is apparent. I'm sure he knew I would not be happy, to say the least. But at least I would have heard it from him, and I would have been ok with it. Not right away of course, I'd still be in tears. But I would have taken it better that way, rather then hearing it from some stupid fat, immature little bitch that doesn't even have the balls to call me herself.
I wish him the best of luck, he'll need it apparently. I was willing to give this girl a chance, but not now. If I ever see her, she better pray to god that I am in a good mood.
I know I'll be ok, I'm a strong girl. But right now, not so much.