such boundless pleasure, we've no time for later... so let go
I didn't deserve this. I kept my mouth shut since last march for a reason. I never said anything cuz I knew it would end up like this and it's not fair. But when you came to me I thought ok, it might work out. maybe. and when you said you wanted it to work I really thought it would. well I don't know what changed that night but all of a sudden it wasn't right. you said you didn't want me to get too attached but now it's too late for that. God I held myself back for so long. I know I shouldn't have let go. I never keep my head in this stuff and I always end up in this position. It's not fair and I don't deserve it. I'm stuck here now, I have nothing. I'm exactly where I never wanted to be and this is exactly why I never said anything. I'm finished now. I have nothing.