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Man...it's been a while. This semester was...well, I want to say it was hell, but I refused to let myself get crazy about it, so I just kind-of tolerated it. I sacrificed a lot of sleep. In the last 3 weeks, I was only sleeping every other night, no exaggeration. I wrote enough pages in papers to make up a dissertation! And I'm technically 20 pages into what will be my 40-page thesis. I say "technically" because it really needs cleaning up, and I know that, but I did the best I could for the amount of sleep I got and the amount of time I had.
And I'm so proud of myself. It was freakin' insane.
Right now I have 4 "A"s out of 5, and if I get straight-"A"s...okay I'll wait to announce that one. But oh my gosh.
As for next semester, my schedule is so awesome. Classes only T/Th, 11-4:45. Evan and I would have had the same exact schedule except that he TAs. I think we'll commute together anyway, and I'll just stay a couple of hours later on Thursdays when he does his thang (the other TA day is Monday I think - not Tuesday, at any rate).
I feel very...level. Which still amazes me, and for which I'm still incredibly thankful. I'm a really boring person. Seriously. I don't do much. And I don't upset easily, and I don't need much to make me happy. I don't even stress anymore, as long as I know what's going on, and this entire semester was evidence of that. It's incredible to me how far I've come since grade school, and how much hell I narrowly avoided, mostly by sheer chance. And it's also amazing how little I actually think like that anymore, putting significant thought in the past and such. I just kinda am =D, it's pretty Zen.
As soon as I realized I was done with the semester - my grades were out of my hands - I had an "oh god, what now?" feeling, but it only lasted a little while. The other night I picked up my Shakespeare, looked up what we'd be discussing in my Shakespeare course, and started reading, just because. I just do what I need to do.
I don't have friends, really, which rushed back to the front of my thoughts along with that "what now?" feeling, but that faded quickly too.
I'm simply content. Somber isn't a bad thing for me. I'm okay with sitting at home reading all day, as long as I can get to the gym =). My vice is amazing food, and I think that's pretty cool too.
Alright, I AM SO looking forward to Christmas though! =D
I'll probably head up to my family's tomorrow or the day after. Once again, I'm thankful my family doesn't put much stock in the material end of things. I love being part of such an awesome group of people.
Oh good, I'm actually getting sleepy writing out my thoughts. Who knows what I've written - I don't - but I'm definitely posting the good news if I get that other "A".
And I'm so proud of myself. It was freakin' insane.
Right now I have 4 "A"s out of 5, and if I get straight-"A"s...okay I'll wait to announce that one. But oh my gosh.
As for next semester, my schedule is so awesome. Classes only T/Th, 11-4:45. Evan and I would have had the same exact schedule except that he TAs. I think we'll commute together anyway, and I'll just stay a couple of hours later on Thursdays when he does his thang (the other TA day is Monday I think - not Tuesday, at any rate).
I feel very...level. Which still amazes me, and for which I'm still incredibly thankful. I'm a really boring person. Seriously. I don't do much. And I don't upset easily, and I don't need much to make me happy. I don't even stress anymore, as long as I know what's going on, and this entire semester was evidence of that. It's incredible to me how far I've come since grade school, and how much hell I narrowly avoided, mostly by sheer chance. And it's also amazing how little I actually think like that anymore, putting significant thought in the past and such. I just kinda am =D, it's pretty Zen.
As soon as I realized I was done with the semester - my grades were out of my hands - I had an "oh god, what now?" feeling, but it only lasted a little while. The other night I picked up my Shakespeare, looked up what we'd be discussing in my Shakespeare course, and started reading, just because. I just do what I need to do.
I don't have friends, really, which rushed back to the front of my thoughts along with that "what now?" feeling, but that faded quickly too.
I'm simply content. Somber isn't a bad thing for me. I'm okay with sitting at home reading all day, as long as I can get to the gym =). My vice is amazing food, and I think that's pretty cool too.
Alright, I AM SO looking forward to Christmas though! =D
I'll probably head up to my family's tomorrow or the day after. Once again, I'm thankful my family doesn't put much stock in the material end of things. I love being part of such an awesome group of people.
Oh good, I'm actually getting sleepy writing out my thoughts. Who knows what I've written - I don't - but I'm definitely posting the good news if I get that other "A".