good bye freeland, hello crazy world
i left the place that i had known as my home for the past 19 years on friday. we weren't on the road for more than 2 minutes and i just started to cry. but i didn't care. i just let the tears fall. sometimes it's okay to cry and sometimes you need to cry. it helps you deal w/ everything, it washes away all of your sorrows and cleanses you and makes you whole again. this is the first time i have really cried in a long time. i didn't cry at my graduation a year ago, or at the end of summer when i was leaving for college, or when my parents left me at college and went on their way. but i cried this time. maybe it's because i'm not exactly sure when i'll be coming back to freeland, and maybe it's because i was mad at my parents for ruining my summer and my life, and maybe it's because i already miss you all so much. gosh, i think i'm gonna cry again, but you know what, it's okay to cry.
i hate driving for endless hours across states, i hate living in an apartment and having all of my stuff in boxes. i wish the house was done so that it would feel more like home...even though i know that this place will never feel like home. i hate not knowing anybody and i hate not knowing my way around so that maybe i could get away from this chaotic life of mine. i wish i were still in freeland where there was familiarity and comfort. nothing feels as it should right now. and i feel as though i'm slipping away. please pray for me.
o God, please help me get my life back on track. i need you now more than ever...and i feel like i've shut you out of my life when i need you the most.
i just want to thank everyone for a wonderful time when i was home. i only wish it could have lasted forever.
-jenna marie
i hate driving for endless hours across states, i hate living in an apartment and having all of my stuff in boxes. i wish the house was done so that it would feel more like home...even though i know that this place will never feel like home. i hate not knowing anybody and i hate not knowing my way around so that maybe i could get away from this chaotic life of mine. i wish i were still in freeland where there was familiarity and comfort. nothing feels as it should right now. and i feel as though i'm slipping away. please pray for me.
o God, please help me get my life back on track. i need you now more than ever...and i feel like i've shut you out of my life when i need you the most.
i just want to thank everyone for a wonderful time when i was home. i only wish it could have lasted forever.
-jenna marie