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[jenn_]

Something's always there, Painfully nudging my shoulder Panic flow, travels through my veins The feeling gets so intense, Sometimes, I just can't take it. I feel too weak to face it. This void. This hole. This constant emptiness continues to take control. Hopelessness plagues my sanity This absence Punctures me Starting slow, then speeding up.. ..it's torturous.... But plz don't ever fade... ~These dam frequent moments.... Nov. 9 i faded for too long.. what am I gonna do ? I am never content. I desired happiness and security, i seeped into a world of deciet and pain, ALL i wanted was novacaine Fake happiness was better than depression Always following was a dark cloud of pain and hurt I loved it, i hated it, i itched for it i wallowed inside myself swimming into a dark tunnel.. i thought i was forever lost I found the way out I've become stronger Will i fade again?