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Well damn its been awhile. I should write more often. I think that's what I'll do...or at least try to do. Last night I kicked it with Mike...and Matt. Yeah..it sucks because there I go....down the drain again, and back to square one for the zillionth fuckin time. Why do I do this? Why doesn't it go away? I can't turn away. The grasp is too powerful. The fuckin worst battle I've ever fought, almost like another side of me takes over. The side that can't get enough...can't let go.
Then I got high with Mark and Doug...and Red. Yes, indeed....I'm still high, and I'm getting tiiiiiired......Hmmm...the shit backfired...god dammit. That was it....I believe. I don't want to accept this anymore.. I wanna end this chapter with last night....
Daniel got drunk with Beth....and Kayla...Marks sister. Ahahha....Daniel was "drunk" and called Mikes phone, saying I was a bitch and ect....so I called him and cussed him out while he yelled at me as well. It was rather irritating and I got kinna pumped, why do they always do that stupid shit? Those immature, ignorant assholes. I didn't think Daniel's supposed "heart" could suddenly turn to stone...
I guess this is a good lesson in people. People can portray such a convincing image to others, for countless reasons...and we might not always know everyone's full capabilities and boundaries regarding there persona.
Only thing that confuses me...is ..why do I have a soft spot for them (ALOT of them) yet at the same time...when I act upon this friendliness or caringness, it backfires on me, ending all fucked up and shit.
Ewww...I got this fat ass pimple on my cheek....it hurts.
Ok that's all for now....
-The Last Day/Night : 10.25.03 - ~~~~~~
Then I got high with Mark and Doug...and Red. Yes, indeed....I'm still high, and I'm getting tiiiiiired......Hmmm...the shit backfired...god dammit. That was it....I believe. I don't want to accept this anymore.. I wanna end this chapter with last night....
Daniel got drunk with Beth....and Kayla...Marks sister. Ahahha....Daniel was "drunk" and called Mikes phone, saying I was a bitch and ect....so I called him and cussed him out while he yelled at me as well. It was rather irritating and I got kinna pumped, why do they always do that stupid shit? Those immature, ignorant assholes. I didn't think Daniel's supposed "heart" could suddenly turn to stone...
I guess this is a good lesson in people. People can portray such a convincing image to others, for countless reasons...and we might not always know everyone's full capabilities and boundaries regarding there persona.
Only thing that confuses me...is ..why do I have a soft spot for them (ALOT of them) yet at the same time...when I act upon this friendliness or caringness, it backfires on me, ending all fucked up and shit.
Ewww...I got this fat ass pimple on my cheek....it hurts.
Ok that's all for now....
-The Last Day/Night : 10.25.03 - ~~~~~~