Good and bad
Woot woot! (wow, I haven't said that in forever). I'm so incredibly happy with my parents right now. They just started the process of purchasing a cabin/house in Pine. According to my mom it's a 3bd 2ba, with gas fireplace, spa/jet tub in the master bath, 360 degree mountain views, on an acre of land. They'll be getting it just in time to be super cold enough to take advantage of nights in front of the fire, hot bubble baths in the jet tub, and snow! (and I haven't seen snow in like 7 years). Let me tell you, I'm going to be borrowing the keys to the house quite often. And I'm going to see if I can talk them into letting me decorate it too :) Oh my goodness I need a weekend get-away soo bad.
I haven't been feeling myself lately. For the most part I've been pretty anti-social. I haven't felt like taking the time to get ready to go out to see people who couldn't care less whether or not they see me. What's the point? Besides that, things are just going downhill again.
*CheckFree extended my start date which means a longer period of time without income. I'll have just enough to pay rent and electric, but I can forget Christmas. And I was doing so well too. Damn me for choosing the worst possible time to switch jobs.
*I was wanting to go back to school, actually attending class instead of taking filler internet classes, in January. But it now looks like that won't be happening. I have to work too hard for everything I have now not to work full-time at a job that has to pay higher than $12/hr. And it is mostly my fault for getting such an expensive apartment. But where else was I supposed to go? My parents' house? I don't think so. And then I got all excited and got my hopes up when an opportunity to sign over my lease and go somewhere cheaper was presented to me. But of course that fell through. I'm just going to stop letting myself believe things, and look forward to anything. I just end up dissapointed.
*Then to top everything off, I can't seem to get rid of you-know-who. And while I don't want to 'get rid' of him completely, I'd like if he weren't so dependant on me. And recently he had an old gf interested and completely hitting on him. And believe me, I was more than supportive. But of course he turned it down due to false expectations of somehow 'mending' things with me.
So that's everything lately. I'm surviving though. And that's always something to be positive about at least :)
I haven't been feeling myself lately. For the most part I've been pretty anti-social. I haven't felt like taking the time to get ready to go out to see people who couldn't care less whether or not they see me. What's the point? Besides that, things are just going downhill again.
*CheckFree extended my start date which means a longer period of time without income. I'll have just enough to pay rent and electric, but I can forget Christmas. And I was doing so well too. Damn me for choosing the worst possible time to switch jobs.
*I was wanting to go back to school, actually attending class instead of taking filler internet classes, in January. But it now looks like that won't be happening. I have to work too hard for everything I have now not to work full-time at a job that has to pay higher than $12/hr. And it is mostly my fault for getting such an expensive apartment. But where else was I supposed to go? My parents' house? I don't think so. And then I got all excited and got my hopes up when an opportunity to sign over my lease and go somewhere cheaper was presented to me. But of course that fell through. I'm just going to stop letting myself believe things, and look forward to anything. I just end up dissapointed.
*Then to top everything off, I can't seem to get rid of you-know-who. And while I don't want to 'get rid' of him completely, I'd like if he weren't so dependant on me. And recently he had an old gf interested and completely hitting on him. And believe me, I was more than supportive. But of course he turned it down due to false expectations of somehow 'mending' things with me.
So that's everything lately. I'm surviving though. And that's always something to be positive about at least :)