losing my grip.
I feel like I am being judged on a regular basis for just being myself...so I might as well put it all out there...seeing as like I said im being judged anyways might as well be honest. ....what is on my mind this very instant.
Why am I even doing this entry.....I think its because I just had an awesome conversation last night..and feel great about myself
Speaking of the conversation.....( what the airplane! ..it just flew by sooo close to my window) anyways i rolled up to the parties last night wearing my 80's gear like...i was molly ringwald or something . it was my friends 21st birthday celebration and it was soooo much fun. I was really enlightened by all of the lighthearted fun in willimantic..honestly it was a good feeling knowing that I wasn't going to be pressured for any reason to do any of the things that most of willimantics all about. If your reading this im sure youll see the tagged pictures in the next 24 hours. haha
Well after we danced and celebrated I felt wierd...i've been feeling really not myself lately...and its really got me wondering about a few things in my life.
To be honest out of everything I feel less dignified in the things I have been doing... ( skipping class, eating shitty food..swearing) those are just three examples...but I really want to cleanse my body this week. Its kind of wierd to type on here...seeing as nobody wants to know it but its definently on my mind and has been. I really want to just drink water for the next few days. Im going to. with protein shakes to stay in shape.
I used to consider myself not judgemental but im really niave.
Its funny ( not really) how old habits can so quickly consume my mind....it's as though the second I open the door from a specific pathway everything just tromples in.
so back to the conversation thing...I met this person after the 21st birthday party...and we just talked for like 2 or 3 hours...about LIFE. it was really awesome.
I feel comfertable being who I am...its pretty cool.
on another note. I think im a lot more different then most people would expect.
I feel like. well...heres an example... yesterday i was having dinner with meagan..and we were just discussing life. and she said " jenn, sometimes I feel like your older then me" and I asked her why...
her response was because she feels like i am wise.
I have a confession to make. I don't know who of you will believe this.
but I don't believe in love.
I really hate men right now. and I don't think that they are capable of loving beyond their family members.i really don't believe in love.
Why am I even doing this entry.....I think its because I just had an awesome conversation last night..and feel great about myself
Speaking of the conversation.....( what the airplane! ..it just flew by sooo close to my window) anyways i rolled up to the parties last night wearing my 80's gear like...i was molly ringwald or something . it was my friends 21st birthday celebration and it was soooo much fun. I was really enlightened by all of the lighthearted fun in willimantic..honestly it was a good feeling knowing that I wasn't going to be pressured for any reason to do any of the things that most of willimantics all about. If your reading this im sure youll see the tagged pictures in the next 24 hours. haha
Well after we danced and celebrated I felt wierd...i've been feeling really not myself lately...and its really got me wondering about a few things in my life.
To be honest out of everything I feel less dignified in the things I have been doing... ( skipping class, eating shitty food..swearing) those are just three examples...but I really want to cleanse my body this week. Its kind of wierd to type on here...seeing as nobody wants to know it but its definently on my mind and has been. I really want to just drink water for the next few days. Im going to. with protein shakes to stay in shape.
I used to consider myself not judgemental but im really niave.
Its funny ( not really) how old habits can so quickly consume my mind....it's as though the second I open the door from a specific pathway everything just tromples in.
so back to the conversation thing...I met this person after the 21st birthday party...and we just talked for like 2 or 3 hours...about LIFE. it was really awesome.
I feel comfertable being who I am...its pretty cool.
on another note. I think im a lot more different then most people would expect.
I feel like. well...heres an example... yesterday i was having dinner with meagan..and we were just discussing life. and she said " jenn, sometimes I feel like your older then me" and I asked her why...
her response was because she feels like i am wise.
I have a confession to make. I don't know who of you will believe this.
but I don't believe in love.
I really hate men right now. and I don't think that they are capable of loving beyond their family members.i really don't believe in love.