Apr 26, 2009 14:44
Ive found myself in yet another scheme dedicated to surviving the adversity in my life. Recently I have been going through quite a bit between my family, job, school, love life, and future.
and to be honest its all the same thing, and I feel like when it all is worth the bet. I risk quite a bit.
I have always said " if someone you are close to hurts you more then helps you then give them the cut." but really...how does that mean anything when the people who are doing so are your friends and importantly and more relevantly my family.
That being said every situation ive been put in where i could make lemonade has been tansformed into some gigantically placed elephant just sitting on my happiness.
I feel like I should be considerate of what everyone says...but that I should be living and loving my own way.
not letting somebody elses negativity delude and intervene with my own circumstances.
Anger, hate, animosity, upset, greed, sadness, self consciousness, its all a disease. That is only reinforced by the social structures that I have experienced in my life. Nobody goes out of their way that are in my life to say you look nice today ...and honestly I don't do it to other people all that often either.
Because this world is one giant fucking competition. we all walk around with our heads down in a system, that is unchanging. Our lives ( something that should be free, brisk, and filled with oppertunities) have been transformed into ruitine, dull, performances.. .that are only continued by the negative airwaves that we inhabit.
How is it that nobody on this planet realises that animal wastes are one of the leading pollutants and contributers to global warming, but everyone wants a hybrid, everyone wants solar panels, and i get made fun of for being a vegetarian?
why is it that because i am joining the military it is automatically assumed that I am conservative...? IM LIBERAL. I want to make a difference.
I HAVE A VOICE and so does everyone on this planet. I am sick and tired of the oppression that we allow ourselves to feel! free yourself