renewal

[jeneshalynn]

screw this negativity i've been blanketing myself with...i'm ready to start living my life for me, not for memories. i no longer have a broken heart, i decided. i also decided thinking about the past is ridiculous, and i just do not have time for it. i am not sure what spurred this fantastic mood...maybe it was the caffeine i have cut myself off of...maybe it's eating healthy again...working out...most likely a combination of all of those things. OR it could be that i'm going to hollywood in exactly 8.5 weeks. just enough time to lose a bit of weight and look HOT again for my trip, and also for my first journey home. i have a hot dress i want to look smokin in for the banquet while we're at AFA so that is currently going to be my obsession for the next couple months. it will be good for me, though, to focus on me vs. things i cannot control, nor want to.
i feel free, like my mind is mine again...and my heart.

ahhh.