and just for the record-

[jen_mastro]

last night i walked out onto the golf course, it was dark and kinda scary... it's right in back of my house... and i was pacing ... i began running, just running straight and long, far away.... by the time i stopped i was on the other side of the golf course. i was moved by my own frustration and confusion.... it builds and builds, until i almost burst, and all i could do was try and run, run away from it... metaphores becomming reality? why? The ground was wet and it was raining, lost my shoe in a puddle, collected it later on the way back... when i got to the other end, i begged god to walk with me, i did i prayed and begged him a million times to walk with me, to explain himself, i deserve that much, i need to understand.but all i saw was darkness, all around. i walked home alone. i knew...

i remain,
Jen