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Somehow I thought that after I stopped taking my medication, the ten or so pounds its made me gain would be easy to get rid of. I mean, with the exception of the past three days (two of which were spent in Philly), I work out everyday, I'm careful about what I eat, and I write down all the exercise I do and all the food I consume. But no, my weight is stuck. Recently, out of the blue, I started feeling ok about myself. Even though I am not even close to the weight I want to be at and have felt unhappy about myself for like ten years, I started thinking "Ok, well this isn't SO bad. It could be worse." Then my parents told me that if I wanted to, they'd pay for diet pills for me. Now, I know they weren't trying to hurt my feelings and I know that its not because I'm huge or anything. They both take precription diet pills and don't find any shame in it and now, because I've been trying and trying with no success, they feel bad for me. Honestly, I'm probably going to try it. I'm going to hate myself, but hell, I've been trying to lose weight for a long time. I've let myself down enough, and maybe this will give me a boost.
Oh yeah, and Jon and Kate are divorcing. We all saw that coming, but THE POOR CHILDREN!!! What a shitty month it has been!
Oh yeah, and Jon and Kate are divorcing. We all saw that coming, but THE POOR CHILDREN!!! What a shitty month it has been!