Small Crime
TITLE: Small Crime
AUTHOR: jemnise
PAIRINGS: GTOP, TODAE, GDYB
RATINGS: NC17
AUTHOR'S NOTES: I promised myself I'll write a todae, gdyb,gtop ending fic. LOL. all for the heck of it. [cause todae makes me jealous like hell O___O] and yea, this is for bellasomia who will make the layout for my project ROFLMAO XD So yea, here yah go. Its all crappy and all since I did this when I woke up =.= i totally ditched the first one that I had been doing and made another one O.O started at 9:37AM, finished at 10:54AM. mwahaha. now I am off to school ^____^ okay so yea, I somehow edited it. Corrected some typos and blah. Not major ones though mwahahaha ^_________________^
SUMMARY: here you'll find the oneshot where I based this story ^^
Breathes in, breathes out.
You hold onto him as he once again thrust into you. You feel pain, but you know it would slowly go away. You tried to open your eyes only to meet his, and maybe find comfort in those eyes that had always been full of love towards you. And you did, not only that he looked at you, reassuring that he loves you but he smiled as he placed soft kisses on your face, on your neck. And it was more than enough to make you alright.
"Oh gosh, hyung, do that again" You literally scream that last part. He was hitting your prostate and its driving you nuts. You want him to do that forever and it will have the same effect.
1.2.1.2.
"Say you love me.. Dae..Sung.. Say you do..." Your lover and his insecurities, he always needs constant reassurance, and you always fill that in.
"I love you SeungHyun,... oh damn fuck you I love you" Screaming the last part, you cum all over your stomach as he did inside you.
He crashed onto your chest as you embraced his entirety, never had the thought of letting go. You placed soft kisses on his hair, and whispered something before you finally doze off.
"Don't leave me ever hyung, don't"
Little did you know that you're the one who needs to be reassured over and over again, not him.
It was past 3 in the morning and you've been waiting for 6 hours already. You doze off every now and then, but you force your eyes to open because you need to wait for him, you need to make sure that he's alright. It had been almost two weeks that he goes home that late, you never wondered why cause you always see him soaked up and beaten, too much work is an understatement.
"Hyung..." you finally muttered as the door opened, revealing Seung Hyun, again with your leader, Kwon Ji Yong.
If it weren't for that label, leader, you would have punch him on the face for abusing your SeungHyun. He always makes him work overtime, working for new songs, or making him work on his dance.
You ran to them as they were taking their shoes off and enthusiastically asked if they have eaten or something. Both looked so damn tired, and both just forced a smile and politely said no. They headed directly to their rooms, but before that, you spot them exchange some weird looks. So weird it made you wonder, so weird you had the feeling of jealousy. Maybe because they have these looks that only they could understand, that you cannot. You felt the exclusivity that they had, that even you cannot possibly enter.
---
"YoungBae hyung, you notice something different with SeungHyun hyung and Ji Yong hyung?" You are afraid to ask, but it had been months, months and it is killing you so much. You don't know what's happening with Seung Hyun's life anymore, you don't even know if you can still call him your boyfriend. You know you are falling apart, yet you don't acknowledge it, you just keep quiet and maybe ask around.
"Besides the fact that they are obsessing with JiYong's album, SeungHyun's album and the girls' album... does it count that the last time Jiyong and I had sex was like... a couple of months ago?" You looked at your hyung's eyes and found something familiar.
So familiar it feels like you're looking at yourself, in front of the mirror.
"We're falling apart hyung, and I don't know why..." You confessed.
"We're not. JiYong and I cannot. I will not let it." His voice quivered, you sense fear, overwhelming fear. From him and undeniably, from you.
JiYong and YoungBae had been together for the past 7 years, and from the time you went in, you know there's no way in hell that they will go on separate ways. They were just so into each other, they sometimes forget that there are people around them. Its just them in their worlds, and nobody can come in.
You feel that same way, 3 years with SeungHyun, is living in the world wherein there are only him and you, nobody else.
But what's happening now? Are they fucking girls behind your back? For you know that SeungHyun and JiYong has the tendencies to do that, to fuck girls, to even love them. Because once upon a time, they did go out with a girl. And you didn't, YoungBae didn't.
You have no other way to go to if he leaves you.
---
Dark. Filled with silence.
You crept inside the building only to find an empty studio. You can't be wrong, they told you they will be recording today. They will be finishing the album, and after that you can have a break.
"DaeSung, just wait a little longer... After this, maybe we'll go on a break together."
His voice echoes inside your head, makes you giddy like a highschool girl. And that's the exact same reason why you are there, to surprise him. But they were nowhere to be seen, you checked out almost all the studios, but nothing. Not even a shadow of Choi Seung Hyun, nor Kwon Ji Yong.
Then you saw a running YoungBae. From a far, you cannot see his eyes anymore, when he was close enough to you, still his eyes are like non existent.
He's crying, and you just don't know why.
"Hyung, hyung..." You stopped him as he just looked at you and shook your hands away from his arms.
he never said a word, he just ran away. You wanted to follow him, but you were so curious. You want to know why, so as much as you wanted to run after him, you tried to retrace his steps.
That lead you to the gym.
"Oh fuck SeungHyun, you're so damn tight!" You hear some squealing. JiYong's.
"Fuck me more Ji... fuck me damn more" If voices can kill, you're already buried six feet under.
It was SeungHyun's.
Curiousity kills the cat.
You were not satisfied to hear moans, panting, screams and swearing, you just had to lightly open the door, only to find JiYong on top of your boyfriend, fucking him. But that wasn't the scene that stabbed you to death. That wasn't the picture that sent you to hell.
It was your boyfriend, lying there, looking at JiYong, hands on JiYong's face. He looked mesmerized, he looked awed. He looked so damn happy.
"I love you Ji, I love you..."
And that makes a lot of difference. So damn lot it made you slam the door close and stormed outside the building. he never said he loves you while you're having sex. It is always you that reassure him of your love. It was always you that says you love him.
It was you, never him.
---
The moment the two came in, you were inside your room, debating with yourself if you'll go out or not, if you'll act like there's nothing wrong or you'll confront them. However, before you can even decide, you heard a "BLAG" sound, someone hitting hard on the floor, and then some screaming.
"Hyung! STOP IT!" It was SeungRi. He should be asleep, but he's there awake, trying to stop YoungBae.
And you're there, standing in front of your room, looking at the flustered Seung Hyun, beaten JiYong.
Crying YoungBae.
"What? Ji? He's a better fuck? That you threw away all those fucking years? ANSWER ME!" You look at them, feelings like this one is alien to you, you don't know what to say or what to do.
SeungHyun helped Ji to stand up as he stared at you, eyes guilty as charged.
"YoungBae, let me..." Ji spoke up but it was the same time that you found your voice, making its way into the conversation.
"No need to explain hyung. I saw it, and I bet YoungBae saw it too." You calmly said.
"WHAT DID YOU SEE? WHATEVER THIS IS, LET'S WAIT TIL' MORNING OKAY? YOU GUYS NEED A REST!" SeungRi exclaimed as he tried to drag Young bae out of the scene.
"No Lee. I am not leaving here until he decides." You trembled. YoungBae's making them choose. The fear inside you almost jumped out of your body. You don't want to hear anything. you don't want to hear him choosing Ji over you.
Instead of answering, Seung Hyun lets go of JiYong, and went directly to your room. Passing you by along the way. It surprised the hell out of Ji as he smirked and said;
"isn't 7 years enough YoungBae? Isn't it enough? We all have to move on, nothing lasts forever" before you can even think, you were all over JiYong. You were punching him, kicking him, knocking some sense out of him.
"YOU DON'T RUIN RELATIONSHIPS LIKE THAT JIYONG. YOU DON'T. YOU JUST DIDN'T RUIN YOURS, YOU RUINED MINE" You cry and cry, and cry more. You cannot stop yourself even when it was YoungBae and SeungRi who were trying to stop you.
When you were done beating the hell out of the skinny leader, you stood up and glared at him, bleeding nose, lips.
"Youngbae's world revolved around you. My world revolved around SeungHyun. Years hyung. You ruined all those years" You wiped away your tears, walked to your room, expecting to find SeungHyun. Expecting another word battle, some explaining, some giving up. you always give up when its SeungHyun in front of you.
You hold on to the knob, breathe in, turned it open.
And found an empty space.
You closed the door behind you and ran to your bathroom and check maybe he's there. But nothing. Not even a shadow.
And then you saw a paper on your bed, as much as you wanted to ignore it, you just can't possibly do that. You picked it up and read those few words. Few words that finally made your world collapse.
Sorry DaeSungie, I choose JiYong over you.
It was simple and frank. It made your knees go weak, made your world staionary. Made everything around you stop. It was the end, a period in a sentence. An epilogue to a story that you thought will last forever.
It lingers. The pain. The words. And the image, of them having sex, JiYong giving him the sex he wanted. And you thought; Can you not give him that?
And you just cry, and cry more. For you have nothing else to do.
You silently went out of your room, you don't know why, but you went to his room, ears glued to the door but silence is all you can hear. You turned the knob, opened it lightly just to take a peek.
Again, you don't know why you're doing that, you just feel you have to.
And you see your past lover, all over JiYong. He was embracing his entirety, that even in sleep, whoever comes in would be very much afraid to even touch Kwon.
You covered your mouth and silently closed the door, carefully went back to your room, just to cry more.
You don't know until when will you cry, but you're certain with one thing. It will take a lot of time for your wounds to heal. Or even forever can never heal the wound that Choi Seung Hyun created.
A/N: what on earth is with the title? LOL well, i've been listening to 9 crimes while I was writing this one so yea ^___^
AUTHOR: jemnise
PAIRINGS: GTOP, TODAE, GDYB
RATINGS: NC17
AUTHOR'S NOTES: I promised myself I'll write a todae, gdyb,gtop ending fic. LOL. all for the heck of it. [cause todae makes me jealous like hell O___O] and yea, this is for bellasomia who will make the layout for my project ROFLMAO XD So yea, here yah go. Its all crappy and all since I did this when I woke up =.= i totally ditched the first one that I had been doing and made another one O.O started at 9:37AM, finished at 10:54AM. mwahaha. now I am off to school ^____^ okay so yea, I somehow edited it. Corrected some typos and blah. Not major ones though mwahahaha ^_________________^
SUMMARY: here you'll find the oneshot where I based this story ^^
Breathes in, breathes out.
You hold onto him as he once again thrust into you. You feel pain, but you know it would slowly go away. You tried to open your eyes only to meet his, and maybe find comfort in those eyes that had always been full of love towards you. And you did, not only that he looked at you, reassuring that he loves you but he smiled as he placed soft kisses on your face, on your neck. And it was more than enough to make you alright.
"Oh gosh, hyung, do that again" You literally scream that last part. He was hitting your prostate and its driving you nuts. You want him to do that forever and it will have the same effect.
1.2.1.2.
"Say you love me.. Dae..Sung.. Say you do..." Your lover and his insecurities, he always needs constant reassurance, and you always fill that in.
"I love you SeungHyun,... oh damn fuck you I love you" Screaming the last part, you cum all over your stomach as he did inside you.
He crashed onto your chest as you embraced his entirety, never had the thought of letting go. You placed soft kisses on his hair, and whispered something before you finally doze off.
"Don't leave me ever hyung, don't"
Little did you know that you're the one who needs to be reassured over and over again, not him.
It was past 3 in the morning and you've been waiting for 6 hours already. You doze off every now and then, but you force your eyes to open because you need to wait for him, you need to make sure that he's alright. It had been almost two weeks that he goes home that late, you never wondered why cause you always see him soaked up and beaten, too much work is an understatement.
"Hyung..." you finally muttered as the door opened, revealing Seung Hyun, again with your leader, Kwon Ji Yong.
If it weren't for that label, leader, you would have punch him on the face for abusing your SeungHyun. He always makes him work overtime, working for new songs, or making him work on his dance.
You ran to them as they were taking their shoes off and enthusiastically asked if they have eaten or something. Both looked so damn tired, and both just forced a smile and politely said no. They headed directly to their rooms, but before that, you spot them exchange some weird looks. So weird it made you wonder, so weird you had the feeling of jealousy. Maybe because they have these looks that only they could understand, that you cannot. You felt the exclusivity that they had, that even you cannot possibly enter.
---
"YoungBae hyung, you notice something different with SeungHyun hyung and Ji Yong hyung?" You are afraid to ask, but it had been months, months and it is killing you so much. You don't know what's happening with Seung Hyun's life anymore, you don't even know if you can still call him your boyfriend. You know you are falling apart, yet you don't acknowledge it, you just keep quiet and maybe ask around.
"Besides the fact that they are obsessing with JiYong's album, SeungHyun's album and the girls' album... does it count that the last time Jiyong and I had sex was like... a couple of months ago?" You looked at your hyung's eyes and found something familiar.
So familiar it feels like you're looking at yourself, in front of the mirror.
"We're falling apart hyung, and I don't know why..." You confessed.
"We're not. JiYong and I cannot. I will not let it." His voice quivered, you sense fear, overwhelming fear. From him and undeniably, from you.
JiYong and YoungBae had been together for the past 7 years, and from the time you went in, you know there's no way in hell that they will go on separate ways. They were just so into each other, they sometimes forget that there are people around them. Its just them in their worlds, and nobody can come in.
You feel that same way, 3 years with SeungHyun, is living in the world wherein there are only him and you, nobody else.
But what's happening now? Are they fucking girls behind your back? For you know that SeungHyun and JiYong has the tendencies to do that, to fuck girls, to even love them. Because once upon a time, they did go out with a girl. And you didn't, YoungBae didn't.
You have no other way to go to if he leaves you.
---
Dark. Filled with silence.
You crept inside the building only to find an empty studio. You can't be wrong, they told you they will be recording today. They will be finishing the album, and after that you can have a break.
"DaeSung, just wait a little longer... After this, maybe we'll go on a break together."
His voice echoes inside your head, makes you giddy like a highschool girl. And that's the exact same reason why you are there, to surprise him. But they were nowhere to be seen, you checked out almost all the studios, but nothing. Not even a shadow of Choi Seung Hyun, nor Kwon Ji Yong.
Then you saw a running YoungBae. From a far, you cannot see his eyes anymore, when he was close enough to you, still his eyes are like non existent.
He's crying, and you just don't know why.
"Hyung, hyung..." You stopped him as he just looked at you and shook your hands away from his arms.
he never said a word, he just ran away. You wanted to follow him, but you were so curious. You want to know why, so as much as you wanted to run after him, you tried to retrace his steps.
That lead you to the gym.
"Oh fuck SeungHyun, you're so damn tight!" You hear some squealing. JiYong's.
"Fuck me more Ji... fuck me damn more" If voices can kill, you're already buried six feet under.
It was SeungHyun's.
Curiousity kills the cat.
You were not satisfied to hear moans, panting, screams and swearing, you just had to lightly open the door, only to find JiYong on top of your boyfriend, fucking him. But that wasn't the scene that stabbed you to death. That wasn't the picture that sent you to hell.
It was your boyfriend, lying there, looking at JiYong, hands on JiYong's face. He looked mesmerized, he looked awed. He looked so damn happy.
"I love you Ji, I love you..."
And that makes a lot of difference. So damn lot it made you slam the door close and stormed outside the building. he never said he loves you while you're having sex. It is always you that reassure him of your love. It was always you that says you love him.
It was you, never him.
---
The moment the two came in, you were inside your room, debating with yourself if you'll go out or not, if you'll act like there's nothing wrong or you'll confront them. However, before you can even decide, you heard a "BLAG" sound, someone hitting hard on the floor, and then some screaming.
"Hyung! STOP IT!" It was SeungRi. He should be asleep, but he's there awake, trying to stop YoungBae.
And you're there, standing in front of your room, looking at the flustered Seung Hyun, beaten JiYong.
Crying YoungBae.
"What? Ji? He's a better fuck? That you threw away all those fucking years? ANSWER ME!" You look at them, feelings like this one is alien to you, you don't know what to say or what to do.
SeungHyun helped Ji to stand up as he stared at you, eyes guilty as charged.
"YoungBae, let me..." Ji spoke up but it was the same time that you found your voice, making its way into the conversation.
"No need to explain hyung. I saw it, and I bet YoungBae saw it too." You calmly said.
"WHAT DID YOU SEE? WHATEVER THIS IS, LET'S WAIT TIL' MORNING OKAY? YOU GUYS NEED A REST!" SeungRi exclaimed as he tried to drag Young bae out of the scene.
"No Lee. I am not leaving here until he decides." You trembled. YoungBae's making them choose. The fear inside you almost jumped out of your body. You don't want to hear anything. you don't want to hear him choosing Ji over you.
Instead of answering, Seung Hyun lets go of JiYong, and went directly to your room. Passing you by along the way. It surprised the hell out of Ji as he smirked and said;
"isn't 7 years enough YoungBae? Isn't it enough? We all have to move on, nothing lasts forever" before you can even think, you were all over JiYong. You were punching him, kicking him, knocking some sense out of him.
"YOU DON'T RUIN RELATIONSHIPS LIKE THAT JIYONG. YOU DON'T. YOU JUST DIDN'T RUIN YOURS, YOU RUINED MINE" You cry and cry, and cry more. You cannot stop yourself even when it was YoungBae and SeungRi who were trying to stop you.
When you were done beating the hell out of the skinny leader, you stood up and glared at him, bleeding nose, lips.
"Youngbae's world revolved around you. My world revolved around SeungHyun. Years hyung. You ruined all those years" You wiped away your tears, walked to your room, expecting to find SeungHyun. Expecting another word battle, some explaining, some giving up. you always give up when its SeungHyun in front of you.
You hold on to the knob, breathe in, turned it open.
And found an empty space.
You closed the door behind you and ran to your bathroom and check maybe he's there. But nothing. Not even a shadow.
And then you saw a paper on your bed, as much as you wanted to ignore it, you just can't possibly do that. You picked it up and read those few words. Few words that finally made your world collapse.
Sorry DaeSungie, I choose JiYong over you.
It was simple and frank. It made your knees go weak, made your world staionary. Made everything around you stop. It was the end, a period in a sentence. An epilogue to a story that you thought will last forever.
It lingers. The pain. The words. And the image, of them having sex, JiYong giving him the sex he wanted. And you thought; Can you not give him that?
And you just cry, and cry more. For you have nothing else to do.
You silently went out of your room, you don't know why, but you went to his room, ears glued to the door but silence is all you can hear. You turned the knob, opened it lightly just to take a peek.
Again, you don't know why you're doing that, you just feel you have to.
And you see your past lover, all over JiYong. He was embracing his entirety, that even in sleep, whoever comes in would be very much afraid to even touch Kwon.
You covered your mouth and silently closed the door, carefully went back to your room, just to cry more.
You don't know until when will you cry, but you're certain with one thing. It will take a lot of time for your wounds to heal. Or even forever can never heal the wound that Choi Seung Hyun created.
A/N: what on earth is with the title? LOL well, i've been listening to 9 crimes while I was writing this one so yea ^___^