truth
And the day you didn't, is the same day you allow them to hurt you
In transit earlier, I was thinking of all the decisions I made in life. This constant search for the sense of belonging, looking for happily ever after, adrenaline boosting adventure - where do these stuff lead to? What is that one goal that I would want to get? What is the thing I am most hungry about?
To be loved back in the way I want to. Or at least, I think I deserve.
I give a piece of my heart to the people I love. I let my walls down for them. And for years, all they do is step on it. Crush it in their bare hands as if it meant nothing. Tell me how to feel good about myself because honestly, I don't know anymore. I took anti depressant meds in their powder form to make sure I stop crying. However it had been 7 hours and here I am crying shitload. I thought I can finally finish my novel, but my muse left me. I don't know how I can get it back. Not this time.