What I find hilarious/Journal entry #1
Do you know what I find hilarious?
Well first, I can't for the life of me figure out why it's not okay for me to talk about my mother, on my blog. I find that hilarious. I find it great that with every emotion I shed, with every bit of myself I share someone takes it and twists it and makes it ABOUT THEM.
How is that okay?
And that is what I find hilarious. That people get to bitch and whine and complain on PUBLIC sites but they refuse to post and rant and rage in private. I don't care if you read this and call me a hypocrite. You're the hypocrite, you don't give a crap. You read this for shits and giggles then rather than come to me questioning ME about MY blog about what I write you get pissed off and post bullshit comments to my posts.
Want to know what else I find hilarious?
I'm 22 years old, and I have lost more family in death than a lot of people my age. But when you look at me. I fake you all out. That's what it's about right? Lying to people? PRETENDING TO BE HAPPY? You know what I refuse to "wear a mask" as some of you put it. I refuse to "put on a happy face" for you. Because I don't care. You can whine and bitch and moan all you'd like. But when you are the one alienating YOURSELF from your family, you have no right to look at me and say ANYTHING TO ME. I didn't alienate myself from my family. I watched them die.
If you look me in the eyes and say...."I'm okay with being alone" Then I will look right back at you and say "when you grow up and get your head out of your ass, you will realize that being alone is the hardest trial you will go through." It does NOT matter that you've lost family because they're with you. They ALWAYS live in your heart. BUT when you alienate the people you "love" and the people that honest to God love you....You lose EVERYTHING and not because of "chance" or because of a sudden illness NO you pushed them away and now you deserve everything you're going through.
Journal Entry #1
I KNOW.
I have parental issues
I had no BIOLOGICAL mom growing up
I had an aunt. I called her mom. she was my "mom"
Now I have my uncle. I have my "dad"
I had no BIOLOGICAL father growing up.
That was all a myth to me.
But when I had the chance to talk things out with my mother and my father. THEY were no where to be found.
But if you have the chance to talk things out with the people you have problems with and you are too STUPID to do it, then you deserve to be alone.
That is another thing I find hilarious.
People are so ready to be alone so ready to alienate people from them. To kick them out of their homes, to make life as difficult as possible.
I promise myself everyday that if i'm ever able to have children. I won't refuse them anything they need. I want them to have the same opportunities I had growing up. The things that I refused to take advantage of my children will have the same chances I had, and more.
I will never promise my child ANYTHING and then lie to them and ruin their hopes and dreams.
I will never take my Kids hopes and dreams and run them into the ground
I will never bring down my children
I will never turn my children away
I will never kick my children out
I will never give my children up/away
I will never treat my children the way my parents treated me.
I promise myself that EVERYDAY. I will keep that promise if it kills me.
I hope my kids learn something from me, I hope they understand what I try to teach them, I hope they realize how much I love them, and I hope they in turn love me.
Well first, I can't for the life of me figure out why it's not okay for me to talk about my mother, on my blog. I find that hilarious. I find it great that with every emotion I shed, with every bit of myself I share someone takes it and twists it and makes it ABOUT THEM.
How is that okay?
And that is what I find hilarious. That people get to bitch and whine and complain on PUBLIC sites but they refuse to post and rant and rage in private. I don't care if you read this and call me a hypocrite. You're the hypocrite, you don't give a crap. You read this for shits and giggles then rather than come to me questioning ME about MY blog about what I write you get pissed off and post bullshit comments to my posts.
Want to know what else I find hilarious?
I'm 22 years old, and I have lost more family in death than a lot of people my age. But when you look at me. I fake you all out. That's what it's about right? Lying to people? PRETENDING TO BE HAPPY? You know what I refuse to "wear a mask" as some of you put it. I refuse to "put on a happy face" for you. Because I don't care. You can whine and bitch and moan all you'd like. But when you are the one alienating YOURSELF from your family, you have no right to look at me and say ANYTHING TO ME. I didn't alienate myself from my family. I watched them die.
If you look me in the eyes and say...."I'm okay with being alone" Then I will look right back at you and say "when you grow up and get your head out of your ass, you will realize that being alone is the hardest trial you will go through." It does NOT matter that you've lost family because they're with you. They ALWAYS live in your heart. BUT when you alienate the people you "love" and the people that honest to God love you....You lose EVERYTHING and not because of "chance" or because of a sudden illness NO you pushed them away and now you deserve everything you're going through.
Journal Entry #1
I KNOW.
I have parental issues
I had no BIOLOGICAL mom growing up
I had an aunt. I called her mom. she was my "mom"
Now I have my uncle. I have my "dad"
I had no BIOLOGICAL father growing up.
That was all a myth to me.
But when I had the chance to talk things out with my mother and my father. THEY were no where to be found.
But if you have the chance to talk things out with the people you have problems with and you are too STUPID to do it, then you deserve to be alone.
That is another thing I find hilarious.
People are so ready to be alone so ready to alienate people from them. To kick them out of their homes, to make life as difficult as possible.
I promise myself everyday that if i'm ever able to have children. I won't refuse them anything they need. I want them to have the same opportunities I had growing up. The things that I refused to take advantage of my children will have the same chances I had, and more.
I will never promise my child ANYTHING and then lie to them and ruin their hopes and dreams.
I will never take my Kids hopes and dreams and run them into the ground
I will never bring down my children
I will never turn my children away
I will never kick my children out
I will never give my children up/away
I will never treat my children the way my parents treated me.
I promise myself that EVERYDAY. I will keep that promise if it kills me.
I hope my kids learn something from me, I hope they understand what I try to teach them, I hope they realize how much I love them, and I hope they in turn love me.