Shower the people you love with love...
I'm not trying to make a difference....no way.
Another soldier gone as of today. Another day another dollar.
Holly got me a belated birthday card. Very nice of her. It's been a hectic month. I feel like I've got ten thousand tasks to do and not enough time to get any of them done. It's been a strange month. Lots of changes. Everything has changed absolutely nothing's changed. Okay. I'll stop with the lyrics. They aren't my words anyways.
I'm pretty excited about Friday. My favorite local band is playing 12th and Porter and it's a 21 and over show. That will be a nice change from the all ages irritation that was the last show at Exit-In. Don't get me wrong...I don't mind all ages shows. It's amusing getting hit on by drunk sophomores from MTSU but it also gets old. Then again, older people tend not to appreciate music as much. They have more important shit to do like spurt out babies and work overtime and play golf and go to church pot lucks. Yeah, that's what life is about. Right. We saw Tori Amos play at the Ryman a few years ago and she said at one point that doing the whole, "Birth, grow up, college, marriage, job, kids routine is really cliched" and that "You don't have to live that way." Preach it sister. Of course, monetary stability plays a large part in that but the message is that life shouldn't be about routine and following the crowd. Do something different. Innovate. Go your own way. (Okay, no more music quotes from this point forward). Anyways, Friday. I was planning on getting a large group of friends together as sort of a post birthday celebration but I think I'm just going to invite my brothers. Holding a large gathering of my friends would require excluding certain individuals and I'd rather not do that so I'm going to exclude the whole bunch of em. My birthday has come and gone as is so it doesn't really matter at this point.
Things fall apart...It's scientific. Things have been rough for Holly and myself as we are trying to come to terms with the realization that there are better opportunities ahead for us. Still, I've gained a profound respect for her. She's probably the kindest, most compassionate and giving person I've ever known. She'd go to the ends of the Earth for me and I'm the one who initiated the break up. Still, I did it because I've realized that I don't appreciate Holly like she deserves to be appreciated. I hope to make up to her what I've failed at as her boyfriend by becoming what she has failed to have her whole life, a true friend who will stick with her through thick and thin. It would be very difficult to try to repair things. It's not that things are broken. It's just that the parts don't fit. Holly has the capacity to give me everything I'd want in a relationship. In the future she's going to be very well off financially. I've realized that in my life I need to be a provider. I attribute it to growing up with my mom and also being a Cancer. The hard part is going to be how we go about moving on. We both don't want to separate ourselves from each other's lives but I know that there has to be some level of autonomy developed in the near future. We have our prospects as well as far as future relationships go but we both need to work through our problems before we attempt the next step. Who knows. Maybe someday we will have a four car garage. That's all for now. The stars are out but I can't see them. Gotta love pollution and the glare of big cities.
Going to start working on my songs, a graphic novel and getting this Bands Against Bush benefit together. Here's hoping I can snag Steve Earle and maybe EV as well. Heh.
J
Another soldier gone as of today. Another day another dollar.
Holly got me a belated birthday card. Very nice of her. It's been a hectic month. I feel like I've got ten thousand tasks to do and not enough time to get any of them done. It's been a strange month. Lots of changes. Everything has changed absolutely nothing's changed. Okay. I'll stop with the lyrics. They aren't my words anyways.
I'm pretty excited about Friday. My favorite local band is playing 12th and Porter and it's a 21 and over show. That will be a nice change from the all ages irritation that was the last show at Exit-In. Don't get me wrong...I don't mind all ages shows. It's amusing getting hit on by drunk sophomores from MTSU but it also gets old. Then again, older people tend not to appreciate music as much. They have more important shit to do like spurt out babies and work overtime and play golf and go to church pot lucks. Yeah, that's what life is about. Right. We saw Tori Amos play at the Ryman a few years ago and she said at one point that doing the whole, "Birth, grow up, college, marriage, job, kids routine is really cliched" and that "You don't have to live that way." Preach it sister. Of course, monetary stability plays a large part in that but the message is that life shouldn't be about routine and following the crowd. Do something different. Innovate. Go your own way. (Okay, no more music quotes from this point forward). Anyways, Friday. I was planning on getting a large group of friends together as sort of a post birthday celebration but I think I'm just going to invite my brothers. Holding a large gathering of my friends would require excluding certain individuals and I'd rather not do that so I'm going to exclude the whole bunch of em. My birthday has come and gone as is so it doesn't really matter at this point.
Things fall apart...It's scientific. Things have been rough for Holly and myself as we are trying to come to terms with the realization that there are better opportunities ahead for us. Still, I've gained a profound respect for her. She's probably the kindest, most compassionate and giving person I've ever known. She'd go to the ends of the Earth for me and I'm the one who initiated the break up. Still, I did it because I've realized that I don't appreciate Holly like she deserves to be appreciated. I hope to make up to her what I've failed at as her boyfriend by becoming what she has failed to have her whole life, a true friend who will stick with her through thick and thin. It would be very difficult to try to repair things. It's not that things are broken. It's just that the parts don't fit. Holly has the capacity to give me everything I'd want in a relationship. In the future she's going to be very well off financially. I've realized that in my life I need to be a provider. I attribute it to growing up with my mom and also being a Cancer. The hard part is going to be how we go about moving on. We both don't want to separate ourselves from each other's lives but I know that there has to be some level of autonomy developed in the near future. We have our prospects as well as far as future relationships go but we both need to work through our problems before we attempt the next step. Who knows. Maybe someday we will have a four car garage. That's all for now. The stars are out but I can't see them. Gotta love pollution and the glare of big cities.
Going to start working on my songs, a graphic novel and getting this Bands Against Bush benefit together. Here's hoping I can snag Steve Earle and maybe EV as well. Heh.
J