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I am making up for several days of not posting with several postings in one day! Go me!
Working this out in my head, and since he is not here to converse with, and most likely will not ever be, it gets to go here. Sorry.
The thing is, the very first time I was ever in the same room with him, jokes were made about my wanting meaningless sex with boys in their 20s. And although I actually didn't take much note of him, then, wasn't really aware of him until versefest, it seems he took that seriously. And thinks, perhaps, that is what I have been chasing him for all along? I'm pretty sure he's not that stupid, but who knows.
And he really just isn't interested in me, my baggage, my fat, stretched significantly less than hot and nubile body, and my annoying loud brash stupidity. But persistent flattery is hard to turn down, and hey, if all she wants is meaningless, and she just. keeps. asking. for. it. Well. What's a boy to do?
Stupid girl submits, suspends sense and good judgment in favour of stupid heart, and accepts the consequences. Which were, this time around, an aggressive, less than fun hookup followed by a heartless hasty leavetaking. I got what I asked for. I just wasn't brave enough to ask for what I wanted. Cuz my brain knew I wouldn't get it and my heart was willing to take what it could get.
Break it. Again.
Working this out in my head, and since he is not here to converse with, and most likely will not ever be, it gets to go here. Sorry.
The thing is, the very first time I was ever in the same room with him, jokes were made about my wanting meaningless sex with boys in their 20s. And although I actually didn't take much note of him, then, wasn't really aware of him until versefest, it seems he took that seriously. And thinks, perhaps, that is what I have been chasing him for all along? I'm pretty sure he's not that stupid, but who knows.
And he really just isn't interested in me, my baggage, my fat, stretched significantly less than hot and nubile body, and my annoying loud brash stupidity. But persistent flattery is hard to turn down, and hey, if all she wants is meaningless, and she just. keeps. asking. for. it. Well. What's a boy to do?
Stupid girl submits, suspends sense and good judgment in favour of stupid heart, and accepts the consequences. Which were, this time around, an aggressive, less than fun hookup followed by a heartless hasty leavetaking. I got what I asked for. I just wasn't brave enough to ask for what I wanted. Cuz my brain knew I wouldn't get it and my heart was willing to take what it could get.
Break it. Again.
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