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How do you explain PMS? It throughly pisses me off that's what. It makes me depressed and be really mean to my friends. Gosh I hate PMS so much. Being mean to my friends is not something I enjoy...I feel really sorry for annoying them. And also, I get really upset myself over stupid things. Like scolding a friend for something that happened last year. She gave this overdue Mars Bar to her bf I think, and he got really sick. I fully berated her and she got really mad. I apologised afterwards even though it wasn't really my fault but I shouldn't have been so harsh and we're okay now but I still was really mean.
And yesterday, I was unhappy because the whole day before RICE was a complete waste of time. Thinking back on it, I should have just treated it as a day for relaxing and hanging out with my friends. PMS is so friggin annoying...I should always think of things positively, this is the way that God wants me to live. I know it. I also have to learn how to control my PMS. It will seriously make me hurt someone REALLY bad one day.
But back to yesterday. I got my Myojo. At first I didn't like it because I thought Jin was ugly in it...T_T...which was influenced by PMS and my anti-new-Jin-friend. But when I re-looked at the magazine again, I actually like Jin like this. He's really cute and happy! This makes me happy! I also got the Kanjani8 album KJ1 F.T.O! Yay! It's a really happy album and it's really uplifting. I also spent so much money at the city...Even though at the time I didn't have much fun, thinking back on it, I was glad to go out to the city. And even more glad to be part of RICE.
I REALLY WANT TO BE IN THE RICE CHOIR NEXT YEAR!!! It seems really fun and I love singing and if it's singing for God's praise, I love singing really loud! The whole atmosphere was really great and uplifting! But it seemed so short compared to last year. The atmosphere was much greater than last year but the content of last year was more awesome...But it was still really funny, the talks, videos and the signs and the people.
But I will admit that I did fall asleep at the end of the talk and during the prayer for becoming a Christian. I think it was becuase I was really tired and I didn't have a lot of dinner...only 1 piece of sushi becuase we were rushing a lot becuase everyone spent so much time at Capitol...I only got one set of pics at Capitol! T_T ! But no fear! I will go out to the city again and get another JE mag and take more pics! Yay!
I know I shouldn't make excuses for falling asleep...so after the talk and prayer, I prayed a confessional prayer for forgiveness and I felt so much better overall! Even the my sadness at the beginning of the day was wiped off.
I received the message that the speaker was giving, "When you are lost, always remember that God is there for you!" and also, "No matter what you do, who you are and where you are, God will always receive you back to his heart with wide open arms!" I'm really glad that I'm Christian...when you are sad, you have someone you can talk to that will always listen and when you happy, you have someone to tell about your happiness. I'm also really glad that I have such good friends and such an awesome family. I'm really glad that God gave me such a good life. I am really blessed and I know this. Thank you God. Words cannot explain my gratefulness. Thank you.
After RICE, I did feel the guilt for falling asleep but I know that God has forgiven me. But back to RICE, I was SO annoyed that the fellowship I go to wasn't on the list...ROAR! But I got over it. I hope that the friends that I brought to RICE have become Christians and will start going to fellowship. I really hope that they can. I know that God will provide a way for them to come.
After RICE, me and my friends went back home. It was quite fun because when we were walking to my friend's parents' car, it was raining so we were running through the rain. It was fun in a warped kind of way. But I took off my friend's hat becuase she was laughing at me and another friend. I didn't realise that she was gonna get sick if I did this so I was really sorry after. Luckily she's fine now. But it was really fun running through the rain. When I have a boyfriend, I wanna run through the rain with him. It seems so fun.
In the car, us 3 were discussing boyfriends since we are teens. One of my friends didn't want a boyfriend and she doesn't look like she needs one either. I want one but I don't need one. My other friend doesn't want one now but looks like she needs one. I believe that all girls need a guy and all guys need a girl. And my friend was rather cynical about teenage romance but I think that it's one of the things that I want. It's a special kind of romance. Filled with the innocent of teenage love. No need to think of the future, only the present. Rich and filled with humour. Someone to care for you in a way that is different from what normal boy friends care for you. It's different, boyfriends and boy friends are not the same. Mands believes in 'chicks over dicks' or 'friends over boyfriends' but I think I will have the ability to juggle both of them together. I don't think I will neglect either side.
I realised that my mum gives really good advice. Even though I get really annoyed at her sometimes (God told us that we shouldn't curse under our breath at our parents. Thinking this breaks his heart...I will try and curb my horrible temper and my sensitivity.) she does really care for me and same with my dad. I love them both a lot. My mum once said that 'High School is one of the best times of your life. So treasure and cherish it and LIVE it." I agree with her. So for the rest of my High School life, I'm gonna try and live it as much as I can. Be stupid, retarded, happy, sad, friendly and cherish my friends as much as I can. Learn to love and live for not just myself but everyone around me. If I'm happy, I know I have the ability to make everyone happy too. I know that I have a support network really large. When I'm sad I know that my friends, family and most importantly God will be there to support me. I will do the same for them too. And I will be happy. I will.
Extra note: I WANNA WATCH TMNT!!! Jin is SO hot and cute in 24 hour terebi! I can't wait to download all the Jin parts. The whole thing is too big...Not enough download space...
And yesterday, I was unhappy because the whole day before RICE was a complete waste of time. Thinking back on it, I should have just treated it as a day for relaxing and hanging out with my friends. PMS is so friggin annoying...I should always think of things positively, this is the way that God wants me to live. I know it. I also have to learn how to control my PMS. It will seriously make me hurt someone REALLY bad one day.
But back to yesterday. I got my Myojo. At first I didn't like it because I thought Jin was ugly in it...T_T...which was influenced by PMS and my anti-new-Jin-friend. But when I re-looked at the magazine again, I actually like Jin like this. He's really cute and happy! This makes me happy! I also got the Kanjani8 album KJ1 F.T.O! Yay! It's a really happy album and it's really uplifting. I also spent so much money at the city...Even though at the time I didn't have much fun, thinking back on it, I was glad to go out to the city. And even more glad to be part of RICE.
I REALLY WANT TO BE IN THE RICE CHOIR NEXT YEAR!!! It seems really fun and I love singing and if it's singing for God's praise, I love singing really loud! The whole atmosphere was really great and uplifting! But it seemed so short compared to last year. The atmosphere was much greater than last year but the content of last year was more awesome...But it was still really funny, the talks, videos and the signs and the people.
But I will admit that I did fall asleep at the end of the talk and during the prayer for becoming a Christian. I think it was becuase I was really tired and I didn't have a lot of dinner...only 1 piece of sushi becuase we were rushing a lot becuase everyone spent so much time at Capitol...I only got one set of pics at Capitol! T_T ! But no fear! I will go out to the city again and get another JE mag and take more pics! Yay!
I know I shouldn't make excuses for falling asleep...so after the talk and prayer, I prayed a confessional prayer for forgiveness and I felt so much better overall! Even the my sadness at the beginning of the day was wiped off.
I received the message that the speaker was giving, "When you are lost, always remember that God is there for you!" and also, "No matter what you do, who you are and where you are, God will always receive you back to his heart with wide open arms!" I'm really glad that I'm Christian...when you are sad, you have someone you can talk to that will always listen and when you happy, you have someone to tell about your happiness. I'm also really glad that I have such good friends and such an awesome family. I'm really glad that God gave me such a good life. I am really blessed and I know this. Thank you God. Words cannot explain my gratefulness. Thank you.
After RICE, I did feel the guilt for falling asleep but I know that God has forgiven me. But back to RICE, I was SO annoyed that the fellowship I go to wasn't on the list...ROAR! But I got over it. I hope that the friends that I brought to RICE have become Christians and will start going to fellowship. I really hope that they can. I know that God will provide a way for them to come.
After RICE, me and my friends went back home. It was quite fun because when we were walking to my friend's parents' car, it was raining so we were running through the rain. It was fun in a warped kind of way. But I took off my friend's hat becuase she was laughing at me and another friend. I didn't realise that she was gonna get sick if I did this so I was really sorry after. Luckily she's fine now. But it was really fun running through the rain. When I have a boyfriend, I wanna run through the rain with him. It seems so fun.
In the car, us 3 were discussing boyfriends since we are teens. One of my friends didn't want a boyfriend and she doesn't look like she needs one either. I want one but I don't need one. My other friend doesn't want one now but looks like she needs one. I believe that all girls need a guy and all guys need a girl. And my friend was rather cynical about teenage romance but I think that it's one of the things that I want. It's a special kind of romance. Filled with the innocent of teenage love. No need to think of the future, only the present. Rich and filled with humour. Someone to care for you in a way that is different from what normal boy friends care for you. It's different, boyfriends and boy friends are not the same. Mands believes in 'chicks over dicks' or 'friends over boyfriends' but I think I will have the ability to juggle both of them together. I don't think I will neglect either side.
I realised that my mum gives really good advice. Even though I get really annoyed at her sometimes (God told us that we shouldn't curse under our breath at our parents. Thinking this breaks his heart...I will try and curb my horrible temper and my sensitivity.) she does really care for me and same with my dad. I love them both a lot. My mum once said that 'High School is one of the best times of your life. So treasure and cherish it and LIVE it." I agree with her. So for the rest of my High School life, I'm gonna try and live it as much as I can. Be stupid, retarded, happy, sad, friendly and cherish my friends as much as I can. Learn to love and live for not just myself but everyone around me. If I'm happy, I know I have the ability to make everyone happy too. I know that I have a support network really large. When I'm sad I know that my friends, family and most importantly God will be there to support me. I will do the same for them too. And I will be happy. I will.
Extra note: I WANNA WATCH TMNT!!! Jin is SO hot and cute in 24 hour terebi! I can't wait to download all the Jin parts. The whole thing is too big...Not enough download space...