hmm
well
today was quite interesting... very long day for me. first off late as
usual cuz i had a night full of crying cuz of personal talk with a
friend. then i was late for school like usual, not in the best mood,
had my science teacher talk to me about possibly seeing the school
counselor.. but i dont get how he knows every time i am going through
something..he knows. it is very strange. then i got basically bitched
at by a very attitude full office teacher person at my school.. got
fucking really pissed off about that but at the very end of the day i
ended up telling her that i thought her attitude sucked and it was very
rude of how she treated me and i didn;t like it. she looked shooked as
i was knowing i actually said something to a grown up authority
thingy..but she appologized so yeah. then went home was fine, then had
to find out more fucking bullshit story of adam that once again hurt my
fucking feelings. that just ruined my fucking night and omg was i soo
upset..of course i was hurt and i started to cry and i wanted to
fucking stab shit, throw shit around, and yelll..just fucking yell!!!!
errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
(this message i am about to write goes out to everyone i know)
----- if u know something about adam and thinks they should tell me cuz
i love the kid.. then DONT..CUZ IT FUCKING HURTS ME.. IT HURTS ME.. I
DONT WANT THAT NO FUCKING MORE.. HEAR ME LOUD AND CLEAR... DONT MENTION
ADAM TO ME.. I AM TRYING TO GET OVER HIM.. THAT DONT FUCKING HELP!!!!!!
I AM SERIOUS...I WAS DOING FINE THAN ALL THIS BULLSHIT.. NOW U KNOW IF
U DIDN'T BEFORE.. LEAVE ME ALONE AND DONT TELL ME SHIT THAT WILL HURT
ME LIKE THAT. THAT I FEEL IS SOO FUCKING LOW AND I FIND IT TO BE
NOSEY.. CUZ IT AINT UR PLACE.. U DONT KNOW ME.. U DONT KNOW HOW I WILL
REACT AND IF U DO SINCE U MIGHT KNOW ME.. THAN U SHOULD ALREADY KNOW I
DONT WANT TO HEAR IT. SO UNDERSTAND THIS CLEARLY.. CUZ I CAN'T TAKE
THAT NO MORE.. I AM MOVING ON FROM ADAM.. GOD!
but anyways.. tianna came over.. we went to the talent show.. that was
fucking awsome.. i got extremly more happier than what i was..i was out
of that moood thank god..and i had A GREAT TIME. met some new people..
saw everyone there.. umm made an ass of myself but that is ok lol..umm
made some shout outs hehehe...shhhh dont say nothing tianna! *winks*
saw my gorgeous amanda there and got jealous cuz she was with her bf..
but it's ok i made it to his face when he met me that i wanted his gf..
y hide it lol? AMANDA- YOU ARE FUCKING SEXY BITCH! hung out like with
everyone...had an awseome time.
came home found out pictures were distroyed so now i might just not do
it even though it would of been fucking awsome.. now i might just do a
lame ass poem.. eeew.. id rather do my other idea but can't now. and
now i need to call adam.. even though i somewhat dont want to since i
feel anger towards him... but its like i can't go to bed the right way
without calling him and i love him..he is my good friend to me.. key
word. FRIEND!.
o and i now want a bf...or at least wanting to look for someone go out
with them and shit.. i miss having that kinda.. but i dont want no
loser, no one that is soo not all there that dont know what they are
doing, and dont annoy me.. i know i may be being picky but i think its
somewhat fair.. if i can't find someone than o well.. than ill just be
a major flirt slut lol.
NIGHT
-VALARI