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I'm at Preserve and Gather, trying to give Grandma and Sibol some time alone. I start work in 6 days, so I'm trying to get back in the same mind-frame, giving myself permission to let go, to be a person with and without Sibol.
I find myself being protective. When Sibol cries, I'm trying to let go of the presumption that whoever is holding him is doing something wrong, or that they should be doing this other thing instead. Sibol cries when he is with me, too, so I need to acknowledge that taking Sibol is largely guesswork, especially since he is changing over time and getting older.
So that's why I stepped out. To let Grandma be Grandma, to not meddle with suggestions every other minute. I'm positive she can figure him out.
He has been a bit rough these past few days, though, and I wonder if it's the new faces. He cried in her arms like I haven't seen him cry in a while, so I do think it's unfamiliar. We're trying to make sure that he knows who is holding him at any given moment.