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I sit here crying because I know what I'm going to do isn't what I want to do. I just want everything to be okay. I want it to feel like it used to. I just keep putting this off because I want my feelings to change. I just keep hoping everything will get better. But it's not. I'm not angry anymore. I haven't been for a while, I'm just sad. I've never broken up with someone before and I didn't ever think it'd be with you. You're my best friend and I don't know how to live my life without you. I'm so sorry. This is my fault. I changed. I left home and I changed. I know it was me because I'm fighting with my mom all the time too. I'm just so sorry. I wish I didn't feel like this.