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i had a great fucking first three quarters of the day n the last part has to suck balls. what made it start sucking? i have no idea. nothing in particular, i'm just in a bad mood. i didn't sleep at all last night, n today i went the gym and the beach. so not only am i tired but i got a little more than avg testosterone. & i only say that cos i can really tell. the littlest things have been pissing me off over the course of the past few hours. every bad aspect about a person seems amplified like 30 fold. so someone that says something stupid seems real dumb to me right now...if someone gets in the way of me walking to the kitchen i wanna throw em through a wall. it seems like nobody right now would come across as not bothering to me. they're either talking too much, being too boring, not paying enough attention to what i have to say, they're saying something i dont care about at all, they're being irrational, or if they're fine personality-wise, they just live too fucking far away...how can such a perfect day end w. such negative vibes? why can't i just calm down. i'm too mad to sleep right now. n if i call one of my friends to try n calm down im just gonna end up getting mad at them. i was tired before, but my uncle was over n made us watch this gay ass speech he did at his university's graduation ceremony. i wanted to go to bed...n my aunt forced me to keep open my involuntarily closing eyes. i wish i could be around someone i had beef with. i feel like i could battle someone with sword n sheild to the death right now. and this fucking matisyahu cd refuses to play on my fucking laptop. that's me on my soapbox, n i have vented...all in like 5 mins. i'm done...