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I'm not a good sleeper, and never have been. When my publishing
company (now mostly forgotten) collapsed back in 2002, I developed
severe insomnia. I was getting as little as three hours of sleep
per night, often less, and sometimes none at all. After a couple of
weeks of this, I started to hallucinate cute little cartoon devils
doing calisthenics at the foot of my bed, along with other things
I'm not sure I can describe. Sleep isn't optional. I
sometimes think we sleep in order to dream undisturbed, and that
dreams are somehow where our humanity comes from. If we can't
sleep, eventually we start to dream while we're awake.
My big fear in starting APAP therapy was that I couldn't sleep
with a mask on my face. Had I been a better sleeper, I'd probably
have begun thereapy years earlier. I was given two masks: One
covered my nose and mouth. This is called a "full-face" mask, even
though it doesn't cover your eyes. The other is harder to describe:
It's a little plastic thing on an elastic strap that inserts a
couple of cushioned tubes into your nostrils. These are called
"nasal pillow" masks, and they're a great deal less intrusive than
full-face masks.
The whole point of CPAP/APAP therapy is to push enough air into
your nose to keep your airway open, and to open it if by some
chance it closes. For this to work, you either need a full-face
mask so that if your mouth opens it won't matter, or with a nasal
pillow mask you need some way to keep your mouth closed. There are
chin straps of various sorts and other things lumped into a
category called "headgear." Yet more stuff to tie myself up in; no
thanks. I did the obvious: I used that blue surgical tape you buy
at Walgreen's to tape my mouth shut.
It worked. It worked, at least, until the machine upped the
pressure for some reason. The higher pressure blew the tape off one
corner of my mouth, which became a massive air leak, one noisy
enough to wake me up.
This is my problem in a nutshell: APAP is noisy and
uncomfortable, and keeps me awake. The noise I'm getting used to,
at least the fairly modest noise from the machine itself. Leaks are
a separate issue. I sleep on my side, which means that both kinds
of mask eventually contact my pillow. I can position myself
carefully when going to sleep, and that generally works. But if I
squirm around even a little while I'm asleep, my pillow nudges the
mask to one side, making noise, or (with the full-face mask)
spraying air into my eyes. That wakes me up in a hurry.
To keep me asleep despite masks and leaks and hoses flapping
around, the doc gave me a prescrption for a sleeping pill called
Belsomra (suvorexant.) It's the first of a new
class of insomnia treatments that target the orexin receptors in
the brain, rather than the GABA receptors. Pills like Ambien
(zolpidem) target GABA, and force you to sleep. If you take one and
don't hit the sack, you'll start dreaming anyway, and say or do
dumb things. The orexin receptors keep you awake. Interfere with
their operation using an orexin antagonist like Belsomra, and the
signals to stay awake go away. You drift off. I've taken Ambien,
and it always felt like a whack to the back of my head. Boom! I'm
out. Belsomra has a gentler touch, and from what I've read, it
doesn't affect sleep architecture (i.e., the different stages of
sleep like REM) nearly as much as more preemptive pills like
Ambien.
It's expensive, but very fortunately, Medicare covers it. And so
far, it's done a pretty fair job keeping me asleep in spite of mask
issues. As for mask issues, there's a third sort of mask that I'm
going to buy and try: A nose mask. This is like a smaller full-face
mask that only covers your nose. It may not be any better than
nasal pillows, but it's cheap enough to do the experiment and be
sure.
I've found that there's a downside to blowing air up your nose.
A couple downsides, actually, but there's one big one, and that's
where I'll start next time.