MY LIFE
MY LIFE:::
Well if not for two people i would not have one and all in all my life is good and these two people have made it the best they can but.... to me life suxs or I sux at least why do i have to care so much about these two people if tehy werent here u know how easy it would be to make things easier for me and the world. Its official girls do not nor will they ever like me and i have decided to quite i will be makign some drastic changes in who i am and who i will be. THe person you all have known and grown to feel whatever for is now dead or atleast for the time bieng is tied up and shut away. OK i have a friend and theres this girl which i have kinda grown to like well as usual girls dont like me but she flirts with my firend alot when i have talked to him about her he is like nah shes not good you no going by looks and all but then today he said that if she was to ask him to do stuff he would cause hes been here at tech so long that angered me so much. I have a question why wont even flirty girls flirt with me what the hell is so fucking wrong with me am I the ugly and repuslive do i smell that bad or is it i just do not have a good personality or what. I also learned that while everyone gets angry when i talk and hates me when i dont talk noone else does everythings silent. I have also learned that i am not important why did i ever think i was i no there a few who think i am but im not. I also find it funny how ppl invite me to go along to do stuff but i am basicly ignored unless i talk. So i decided to stop talking u no only talk when spoke to ok of the 6 of us only 2 spoke to me first which was after i was silent for like 30minutes or so and there questions where "whats wrong" or stupid shit like that the thing thats funny is all i wanted was included but o well i lose again i think i am going to become a hermit or some shit i dont know i dont really care about anythig anymore i wish i could let the crimson red fluids of my body stain the earth but alas that is not possible and i must continue to put on this show and pretend things are ok i found thats easy because only a few care i guess i should be happy about that but the ones that care are ones the kind of have obligations to care. I dont know im sick and tired of where im at where im going and i guess since nobody really seems to payattention or care about me i dont im tired of who I am so please people tell me who to be so i can make you all happy the individual i tired to be the careing, consideret person who based everythig i did of tryn to make otheres feel wanted/need and important the kid that tried to do my best to be kind and make everyone laugh the kid who wanted people to be able to tell him anything the kid that rather feel pain so someon didnt have to, the kid that would befriend anyone who needed a friend the kid that tried to live hes dead now and his empty vessel awaites a new identity so please since all of yu helped to kill the orignal at least help create the person to take his place tell me who i should be and who i am.
THANKS EVERYONE
Well if not for two people i would not have one and all in all my life is good and these two people have made it the best they can but.... to me life suxs or I sux at least why do i have to care so much about these two people if tehy werent here u know how easy it would be to make things easier for me and the world. Its official girls do not nor will they ever like me and i have decided to quite i will be makign some drastic changes in who i am and who i will be. THe person you all have known and grown to feel whatever for is now dead or atleast for the time bieng is tied up and shut away. OK i have a friend and theres this girl which i have kinda grown to like well as usual girls dont like me but she flirts with my firend alot when i have talked to him about her he is like nah shes not good you no going by looks and all but then today he said that if she was to ask him to do stuff he would cause hes been here at tech so long that angered me so much. I have a question why wont even flirty girls flirt with me what the hell is so fucking wrong with me am I the ugly and repuslive do i smell that bad or is it i just do not have a good personality or what. I also learned that while everyone gets angry when i talk and hates me when i dont talk noone else does everythings silent. I have also learned that i am not important why did i ever think i was i no there a few who think i am but im not. I also find it funny how ppl invite me to go along to do stuff but i am basicly ignored unless i talk. So i decided to stop talking u no only talk when spoke to ok of the 6 of us only 2 spoke to me first which was after i was silent for like 30minutes or so and there questions where "whats wrong" or stupid shit like that the thing thats funny is all i wanted was included but o well i lose again i think i am going to become a hermit or some shit i dont know i dont really care about anythig anymore i wish i could let the crimson red fluids of my body stain the earth but alas that is not possible and i must continue to put on this show and pretend things are ok i found thats easy because only a few care i guess i should be happy about that but the ones that care are ones the kind of have obligations to care. I dont know im sick and tired of where im at where im going and i guess since nobody really seems to payattention or care about me i dont im tired of who I am so please people tell me who to be so i can make you all happy the individual i tired to be the careing, consideret person who based everythig i did of tryn to make otheres feel wanted/need and important the kid that tried to do my best to be kind and make everyone laugh the kid who wanted people to be able to tell him anything the kid that rather feel pain so someon didnt have to, the kid that would befriend anyone who needed a friend the kid that tried to live hes dead now and his empty vessel awaites a new identity so please since all of yu helped to kill the orignal at least help create the person to take his place tell me who i should be and who i am.
THANKS EVERYONE