Title: Can let you go
Title: Can let you go
Genre: one-shot
Parings: Yamachii, Yamada x OC
Rate: PG13
Type: angst, romance.
Sum
: Chinen Yuri had secretly admired his sempai, Yamada Ryosuke for
almost 7 years until he got chance to be with him after Yamada broke up
with his girlfriend. For nearly 1 years being lovers, however, Chinen
Yuri never feels security toward his lover, realizing that his beloved
one hasn't forgot his ex. Things get worse when Yamada's ex comes back
and says that she still loves him.
"I beg you, Chinen-kun." Suddenly the girl kneels down in front of him.
"You are lying to me. He never cheats on me... never.''
"How do you know that? He and I have been together since we were child. No one can break the bond between us even you, Chinen. You had better leave him or you will be the one who get hurt."
Chinen can feel the hatred in the girl's eyes
"You threaten me."
"Nope. But I will prove you that. I called Ryosuke and he will come in next minutes."
"What?''
"If I show you that he still love me, will you leave him?"
"That's crazy." Chinen stands up. ''I'm leaving."
Suddenly there is a ring.
"He comes" Aki turns to him, says with cold voice. " You should go to my room. I think you don't want him to see you." Chinen has no other choice but obey the girl. He hopes that what the girl has said is not true or he will lose Yamada forever.
"Aki. Why did you call me here? Have I told you that we shouldn't meet anymore."
All of sudden, Aki rushes to his side and hugs him tight.
"What?" Yamada turned shocked, unable to move.
"I love you, Ryosuke. I still, always."
Yamada tries to releases himself from the girl's embrace, but it's useless and he doesn't want to hurt her.
"I can't, Aki. I already has Chinen." . These words raises hope in the chibi' s heart.
"But you still care about me, you always come when I need. Please Ryosuke, please come back." She cries hard on his shoulder, tears keep falling from her beautiful eyes, which somehow makes the older boy feels hurt. He pats her hairs.
"You know Aki. After things we have gone through, you still be special in my heart. I treasures our memories and I will never forget all the moments we share."
Hearing those words from the boy makes Chinen feel like being dragged to hell. He falls to the floor,crying hard. He puts his palm to cover his mouth from making noise. She is true he doesn't want Yamada see him in miserable state. Now all his hope has gone, he really loses to her. He should know from the beginning he will never win Yamada's heart.
Chinen reaches his apament without knowing how he managed to go home. His heart has broken into pieces. He can't face Yamada anymore, like Aki said he had better go away from his life. He doesn't know how he can live without the boy but he would rather leave him than suffer great pain he causes to his heart. He picks up the phone, calls one of his friends then packs his things. He cries all the time until his eyes turn blurred.
It was 11.00 pm when Yamada came home. He has tried to contact his lover for almost 2 hours but there is no reply. He felt guilty for making him angry last night, rather than shouting at him, he should give his love a proper explanation. To his surprise, their apartment was locked. " Where does he go?" he wondered. Yamada turns the key. And when he comes into his room, he felt shocked. The room is empty, all Chinen's things have gone. He was panicked and run to search everywhere, he saw a letter on the bar.
" Ryochan,
I am sorry for leaving you without saying anything. For one year being with you, it's the happiest time in my life, like my dream has come true. The first time my eyes set on you, my world has changed. You has brought new colors to my boring life, because of you I can live again. Being with you makes me become the most happy one in the world but the real life hits me, makes me realize that all those things were just my imagination. You never really forget her. Do you know how I felt when you made love with me and called her name? I can't count how many times I cry anymore. I try to persuade myself that time will change everything, but when she came back I realized that I can keep your heart anymore. So I choose to let you go, to release myself from all those pain.
I will always love you. Hope you can find your happiness with her.
Your Chibi, "
He drops the letter and fall onto the foor, tears fall down over and over. After crying for a while, he stands up still holding the letter tight in his arm. He runs out of his apartment. Yamada don't know where he is going to, he just know that he must find out his precious one, he must bring him back and tell him all those things are misunderstanding and Chinen Yuri is the only one he loves. The weather outside is cold and dark, snow starts to fall. But he doesn't care, the only thing in his mind now is Chinen Yuri. His heart felt like lifeless, he has never felt such great loss in his entire life even when Aki left him. He kept running and calling his name. He came to their places, to everywhere he thinks Chinen can be but he can't find his love. His heart sank, his world turns upside down. He cursed himself for not treasuring Chinen, for hurting his love one. Why he can leave the past behind and take good care of him." I know I have made biggest mistake in my life. But Kami sama, please let me find him. I can't live without him. I love him so much." Again his tears fall down from his eyes. This night he prayed many times to find Chinen again.
Aki comes to Yamada's apartment, he has tried to contact him for almost 3 days but he doesn't reply. She presses the button, and the door opens, revealing Yamada in the worst appearance she has ever seen. He is so thin, eyes are swollen, his hairs turn mess. He looked at her with disappointment and deep sadness.
"What happened, Ryosuke?" she panicked.
" Yuri has gone."
" Really?."
" I have gone to everywhere to find him but I can't see him." He fell down on the floor, his hand holding Chinen's scarf. " Aki, I really,really miss him . I was my fault and now I suffer."
"Maybe, he think that it's the best solution for us. He wants you to be happy, Ryochan." She hugged the older boy tight.
" My life won't be happy without him, Aki. Never. He is the one who is always by my side all the time. He said that I has changed his life but he doesn't know that he changes mine too. I am a fool who keeps looking back the past without realizing what is really important to my life. Not until it is too late, and I lose him for real. Aki, you was my love before but now I only love Yuri. He is the reason I live, without him, my life is meaningless. I treasured our memories but I should treasure him more. Everyday, I just pray the kami sama to bring him back to me."
Aki's heart sank after hearing Yamada's words, her hope has gone. She was the one who caused this to him, she left him before and now because of her selfishness, he loses his precious one. She has no right to do such terrible thing to the one she loves. Yamada may love her before but now his heart already belongs to Chinen Yuri. She feels that she doesn't deserve to him, she can't love Yamada as much as Chinen loves him. And now she know while Yamada chooses Chinen over her. She knows from the beggining for everytime beside her, Ryosuke is always talking about his Chinen, about his cuteness, his beauty and his carelessness. But her stuborness prevents her from giving up. But all the time being with her, Yamada never breaks the line blocking them, he always sees her as a friend. Now she comes to decision.
" I will help you find him, Ryosuke."
"Really?" Yamada looked at her with ray of hope.
She nods lightly and go out of the apartment to make a phone call.
It's one month since the day Chinen left. Yamada' s life turns into hell. He misses his Chii like mad, every night he sleeps, he dreams of him, mumbles his name milions of times. And every day passes, he keeps praying to find his Chii. He can't do anything without thinking of him for a moment. Since when he doesn't know Chinen Yuri has become an important part of his life. He lives with hope of finding him again. One morning, he wakes up. Again not smell familar sweet scent of his love one. His heart aches when he wakes up and the real life hits him. If only he never woke up from his dream in which he can see, even touch and kiss his Chii. Suddenly, his phone ring.
" Moshi, moshi Aki"
Never in his life, Yamada runs such fast. He feels his life come back again. He immediately takes his car key and rushed out of his home.
After 2 hours driving, he arrives at a small village, Chinen's hometown before he is tranferred to Tokyo. Yamada curses himself for never asking Chinen about his living before. He stops at a small cottage with a beautiful flower garden which is full of lilies, Chinen's favorite flower. His heart stops for a moment he saw somone standing in the garden, it's no other than his Chii. Then he steps toward the boy, Chinen keeps watering some flowers wthout noticing his surrounding, and then suddenly a pair of strong arms hug around his waist. He can realize this person by his familiar scent, which he will never be able to forget, the scent he misses too much and its' owner is the reason he keeps crying every night. He was stunned for a while before struggling to get out but his embrace is just too strong as if he is afraid if he loosens his arm his love will disappear immediately.
"I am sorry. I am sorry. I am sorry." Yamada kept repeating those words again and again by his right ear. He felt warm tears along his cheeks. Both his tears and Yamada's tears. He slowly turns around to meet the other eyes, and when their eyes met, he can felt both sorrow and happiness in each other's eyes.
"I thought I would lose you forever. Do you know how scared I am?"
"But.." He puts his finger on Chinen's moist lips, caresses it gently.
"I miss you like mad and when I found out you are here, I come to tell you that Chinen Yuri, I don't care about what happened in the past, now the only thing I know is that I love you, only you until I die. And even the death can stop me from loving you , I will do anything to keep you by my side."
Chinen smiles broadly at those words, he also can feel tears of joy warming his cheeks. Yamada pulls him as close as he can until their foreheads meet. And then they kiss, the kisses are full of need, sanity, happiness and love. Yamada keeps ravishing his lips with Chinen, enjoying his familar sweet taste . Now they found each other and will never let the love of the life go again. He promises he will treasure Chinen with all love and passion, never let his Yuri get hurt by him again. And to Chinen, now he knows he has owned Yamada's heart for real.
Yah, I finish it. Since now I am free from exams until next month, I will try to make some more fics abt Yamachii, coz I love this couple.
Thank for reading and commenting, love you all.
Forgive if I made it suck. I realize it has lots of grammar mistake but too lazy to correct. Hope it doesn't annoy you.
Genre: one-shot
Parings: Yamachii, Yamada x OC
Rate: PG13
Type: angst, romance.
Sum
: Chinen Yuri had secretly admired his sempai, Yamada Ryosuke for
almost 7 years until he got chance to be with him after Yamada broke up
with his girlfriend. For nearly 1 years being lovers, however, Chinen
Yuri never feels security toward his lover, realizing that his beloved
one hasn't forgot his ex. Things get worse when Yamada's ex comes back
and says that she still loves him.
"I beg you, Chinen-kun." Suddenly the girl kneels down in front of him.
"You are lying to me. He never cheats on me... never.''
"How do you know that? He and I have been together since we were child. No one can break the bond between us even you, Chinen. You had better leave him or you will be the one who get hurt."
Chinen can feel the hatred in the girl's eyes
"You threaten me."
"Nope. But I will prove you that. I called Ryosuke and he will come in next minutes."
"What?''
"If I show you that he still love me, will you leave him?"
"That's crazy." Chinen stands up. ''I'm leaving."
Suddenly there is a ring.
"He comes" Aki turns to him, says with cold voice. " You should go to my room. I think you don't want him to see you." Chinen has no other choice but obey the girl. He hopes that what the girl has said is not true or he will lose Yamada forever.
"Aki. Why did you call me here? Have I told you that we shouldn't meet anymore."
All of sudden, Aki rushes to his side and hugs him tight.
"What?" Yamada turned shocked, unable to move.
"I love you, Ryosuke. I still, always."
Yamada tries to releases himself from the girl's embrace, but it's useless and he doesn't want to hurt her.
"I can't, Aki. I already has Chinen." . These words raises hope in the chibi' s heart.
"But you still care about me, you always come when I need. Please Ryosuke, please come back." She cries hard on his shoulder, tears keep falling from her beautiful eyes, which somehow makes the older boy feels hurt. He pats her hairs.
"You know Aki. After things we have gone through, you still be special in my heart. I treasures our memories and I will never forget all the moments we share."
Hearing those words from the boy makes Chinen feel like being dragged to hell. He falls to the floor,crying hard. He puts his palm to cover his mouth from making noise. She is true he doesn't want Yamada see him in miserable state. Now all his hope has gone, he really loses to her. He should know from the beginning he will never win Yamada's heart.
Chinen reaches his apament without knowing how he managed to go home. His heart has broken into pieces. He can't face Yamada anymore, like Aki said he had better go away from his life. He doesn't know how he can live without the boy but he would rather leave him than suffer great pain he causes to his heart. He picks up the phone, calls one of his friends then packs his things. He cries all the time until his eyes turn blurred.
It was 11.00 pm when Yamada came home. He has tried to contact his lover for almost 2 hours but there is no reply. He felt guilty for making him angry last night, rather than shouting at him, he should give his love a proper explanation. To his surprise, their apartment was locked. " Where does he go?" he wondered. Yamada turns the key. And when he comes into his room, he felt shocked. The room is empty, all Chinen's things have gone. He was panicked and run to search everywhere, he saw a letter on the bar.
" Ryochan,
I am sorry for leaving you without saying anything. For one year being with you, it's the happiest time in my life, like my dream has come true. The first time my eyes set on you, my world has changed. You has brought new colors to my boring life, because of you I can live again. Being with you makes me become the most happy one in the world but the real life hits me, makes me realize that all those things were just my imagination. You never really forget her. Do you know how I felt when you made love with me and called her name? I can't count how many times I cry anymore. I try to persuade myself that time will change everything, but when she came back I realized that I can keep your heart anymore. So I choose to let you go, to release myself from all those pain.
I will always love you. Hope you can find your happiness with her.
Your Chibi, "
He drops the letter and fall onto the foor, tears fall down over and over. After crying for a while, he stands up still holding the letter tight in his arm. He runs out of his apartment. Yamada don't know where he is going to, he just know that he must find out his precious one, he must bring him back and tell him all those things are misunderstanding and Chinen Yuri is the only one he loves. The weather outside is cold and dark, snow starts to fall. But he doesn't care, the only thing in his mind now is Chinen Yuri. His heart felt like lifeless, he has never felt such great loss in his entire life even when Aki left him. He kept running and calling his name. He came to their places, to everywhere he thinks Chinen can be but he can't find his love. His heart sank, his world turns upside down. He cursed himself for not treasuring Chinen, for hurting his love one. Why he can leave the past behind and take good care of him." I know I have made biggest mistake in my life. But Kami sama, please let me find him. I can't live without him. I love him so much." Again his tears fall down from his eyes. This night he prayed many times to find Chinen again.
Aki comes to Yamada's apartment, he has tried to contact him for almost 3 days but he doesn't reply. She presses the button, and the door opens, revealing Yamada in the worst appearance she has ever seen. He is so thin, eyes are swollen, his hairs turn mess. He looked at her with disappointment and deep sadness.
"What happened, Ryosuke?" she panicked.
" Yuri has gone."
" Really?."
" I have gone to everywhere to find him but I can't see him." He fell down on the floor, his hand holding Chinen's scarf. " Aki, I really,really miss him . I was my fault and now I suffer."
"Maybe, he think that it's the best solution for us. He wants you to be happy, Ryochan." She hugged the older boy tight.
" My life won't be happy without him, Aki. Never. He is the one who is always by my side all the time. He said that I has changed his life but he doesn't know that he changes mine too. I am a fool who keeps looking back the past without realizing what is really important to my life. Not until it is too late, and I lose him for real. Aki, you was my love before but now I only love Yuri. He is the reason I live, without him, my life is meaningless. I treasured our memories but I should treasure him more. Everyday, I just pray the kami sama to bring him back to me."
Aki's heart sank after hearing Yamada's words, her hope has gone. She was the one who caused this to him, she left him before and now because of her selfishness, he loses his precious one. She has no right to do such terrible thing to the one she loves. Yamada may love her before but now his heart already belongs to Chinen Yuri. She feels that she doesn't deserve to him, she can't love Yamada as much as Chinen loves him. And now she know while Yamada chooses Chinen over her. She knows from the beggining for everytime beside her, Ryosuke is always talking about his Chinen, about his cuteness, his beauty and his carelessness. But her stuborness prevents her from giving up. But all the time being with her, Yamada never breaks the line blocking them, he always sees her as a friend. Now she comes to decision.
" I will help you find him, Ryosuke."
"Really?" Yamada looked at her with ray of hope.
She nods lightly and go out of the apartment to make a phone call.
It's one month since the day Chinen left. Yamada' s life turns into hell. He misses his Chii like mad, every night he sleeps, he dreams of him, mumbles his name milions of times. And every day passes, he keeps praying to find his Chii. He can't do anything without thinking of him for a moment. Since when he doesn't know Chinen Yuri has become an important part of his life. He lives with hope of finding him again. One morning, he wakes up. Again not smell familar sweet scent of his love one. His heart aches when he wakes up and the real life hits him. If only he never woke up from his dream in which he can see, even touch and kiss his Chii. Suddenly, his phone ring.
" Moshi, moshi Aki"
Never in his life, Yamada runs such fast. He feels his life come back again. He immediately takes his car key and rushed out of his home.
After 2 hours driving, he arrives at a small village, Chinen's hometown before he is tranferred to Tokyo. Yamada curses himself for never asking Chinen about his living before. He stops at a small cottage with a beautiful flower garden which is full of lilies, Chinen's favorite flower. His heart stops for a moment he saw somone standing in the garden, it's no other than his Chii. Then he steps toward the boy, Chinen keeps watering some flowers wthout noticing his surrounding, and then suddenly a pair of strong arms hug around his waist. He can realize this person by his familiar scent, which he will never be able to forget, the scent he misses too much and its' owner is the reason he keeps crying every night. He was stunned for a while before struggling to get out but his embrace is just too strong as if he is afraid if he loosens his arm his love will disappear immediately.
"I am sorry. I am sorry. I am sorry." Yamada kept repeating those words again and again by his right ear. He felt warm tears along his cheeks. Both his tears and Yamada's tears. He slowly turns around to meet the other eyes, and when their eyes met, he can felt both sorrow and happiness in each other's eyes.
"I thought I would lose you forever. Do you know how scared I am?"
"But.." He puts his finger on Chinen's moist lips, caresses it gently.
"I miss you like mad and when I found out you are here, I come to tell you that Chinen Yuri, I don't care about what happened in the past, now the only thing I know is that I love you, only you until I die. And even the death can stop me from loving you , I will do anything to keep you by my side."
Chinen smiles broadly at those words, he also can feel tears of joy warming his cheeks. Yamada pulls him as close as he can until their foreheads meet. And then they kiss, the kisses are full of need, sanity, happiness and love. Yamada keeps ravishing his lips with Chinen, enjoying his familar sweet taste . Now they found each other and will never let the love of the life go again. He promises he will treasure Chinen with all love and passion, never let his Yuri get hurt by him again. And to Chinen, now he knows he has owned Yamada's heart for real.
Yah, I finish it. Since now I am free from exams until next month, I will try to make some more fics abt Yamachii, coz I love this couple.
Thank for reading and commenting, love you all.
Forgive if I made it suck. I realize it has lots of grammar mistake but too lazy to correct. Hope it doesn't annoy you.