Hi. How's everybody doing.

[je_index]

Hi. I don't know if you guys still remember me, I bet a few just unsuscribed from my lj/twitter (here or over marga_ps, my lj) and forgot about me, which is totally logical. I don't know if anybody cares, but just for me, I'm going to explain why I disapeared from the fandom completely and why I didn't updated the je-index anymore

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[azel24]

Hi! To be true, I'm also the same as you. Watching computer all day long, seeing the boys, seeing they laugh make me happy. Even I don't have any friends, even if I don't talk at all for the whole day, I feel fine, since I watch them. But then, I have a friend who share the same hobbies as me, fan-girling. Since the first time I joined the JE fandom, your index have helped me a lot. First I love HSJ, and then I goes to Arashi, and the KAT-TUN, then, Domoto Kyoudai. it's like a drug.
But when you leave the fandom and stop updating your index, it's feels so hard for me to see a new update, I'm spoiled by you, I guess. And that makes me lazy, and that's one of the reason I leave the fandom.
After leaving the fandom for a year, I just realize, my life when being a fan-girl like that, leave no significant memory in my life. I just remember I sit in front of my computer all day long. Nothing else. And it affects my personality right now. To be honest, I regret it a little, just a little. JE give me happiness when I sad and courage when I'm afraid. So I appreciate those.

This comment is quite messy, the point is, RL is important. Much more important than our life in the internet. After all Nakai said it once right? "you'll never be with them". Don't be sorry. Congratulations for your life in the RL, don't push yourself. Maybe you should think about making a community to update the index? It would be easier like that right? And if there's a community, there's always the next generation that will handle the community in case you want to go again.