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i know ive already wasted some of youre friend pages today, but i just thought id update. as some of you may have noticed all of my once locked entries have gone public again. i see no reason to hide them, whats the point? why should i keep anything private anymore? i have nothing to lose, really. not to mention in starting to doubt anyone reads this anyways.
update: i got an e-mail, saying nothing more than i already know to begin with. it didnt help, and it sure as hell wouldve been better off not being sent. i did however work up the nerve to send him the finale letter i wrote last night. i dont think he read it, i sent it while he was still online, but he signed off shortly after and being the moron he is i know he couldnt have read it that quickly. i dont expect a thing back. it would be nice, and mean everything in the world to me. but its not expected. i see him making plans, messages to everyone about a party, little "i love you, we should chill" notes to all of his friends, and i half wish some of you people would go kick his ass for me at times. either way. why me? why do guys pick the one girl whos losing hope and giving up to begin with, and then... an e-mail. i wish i had the guts to talk to all the girls he knows, to give them warning " HEY! dont go for it, hes an asshole, he has nothing to offer, and will just waste youre time only to leave without an explaination!". i guess i got mine though. i guess i did what i wanted to do anyways.
update: i got an e-mail, saying nothing more than i already know to begin with. it didnt help, and it sure as hell wouldve been better off not being sent. i did however work up the nerve to send him the finale letter i wrote last night. i dont think he read it, i sent it while he was still online, but he signed off shortly after and being the moron he is i know he couldnt have read it that quickly. i dont expect a thing back. it would be nice, and mean everything in the world to me. but its not expected. i see him making plans, messages to everyone about a party, little "i love you, we should chill" notes to all of his friends, and i half wish some of you people would go kick his ass for me at times. either way. why me? why do guys pick the one girl whos losing hope and giving up to begin with, and then... an e-mail. i wish i had the guts to talk to all the girls he knows, to give them warning " HEY! dont go for it, hes an asshole, he has nothing to offer, and will just waste youre time only to leave without an explaination!". i guess i got mine though. i guess i did what i wanted to do anyways.