look 4 the grl w/ the broken smile:(
*Are you listening?
we write a thousand pages
they're torn and on the floor
headlights hammer the windows
were locked behind these doors
and we are never leaving
this place is part of us
and all these scenes repeating
are cold to the touch
my hands seem to deceive me
when I'm nervous or when I'm healthy.
the scenery's all drawn.
they hang here from the walls dear,
painting pictures, bleeding colors,
blanket the windows.
sometimes it gets so hard to breathe.
your eyes can see right through me.
these fights with your arms left beside.
one thing and one more says goodnight.
you've got the map come get to me.
these knuckles break before they bleed.
tear out these veins that own my heart.
this skin that wears your lasting marks.
i've built these walls come get to me, come get to me.
is this your lesson, a slight discretion,
the lines that keep you, the lines that sweep you.
lock the doors from the inside.
your face is so contagious, it wears announcements,
it leaves me breathless, i won't forget this.
let the walls have their say.
there's no conversation
words without remorse
and this television drowns the only source
wake from these dreams of you in my arms
to the staircase where you hold my heart
this place, these walls, mean everything to me.*~emery..I've never heard this song before but I saw the lyrics and found truth in them
Hey everyone I'm still alive I know I haven't updated in like forever but I've been busy and just haven't gotten a chance to really sit down and write an entry. I try and respond to my friends journals and community entries as best I can but I never really write an entry for myself. Well whats been going on..nothing much I have NO JOB which means NO MONEY yes I am going to be a very poor grl this semester:( I def shop TOO much so what little money I have gets spent..I am a bad grl who is a shopaholic. I spend most of my summer either with Rose and Natalie or shopping or all of the above. I also started ttalking to my friend Andrea from HS and I'm really happy about that because I missed her soo much she's the sweetest grl ever and she's going thru such a hard time right now that I wish I could help her more, I just really hope everything works out for her in the end. When I think about it all the petty bullshit soap opera drama in my life is nothing compared to what she is going thru right now. I've been doing a lot of thinking this summer and I am sooo uncertain with majoring in economics like I just switched and now I'm starting to have doubts:/ I seriousely worry about everything and I am going to drive myself insae..I'm worried about money, school whether I made a good decision yada yada yada..sometimes I'm like sooo sad and I can't even figure out why. I was talking ot Diana about this and she feels similiar it's kind of like I feel like if I do something I'll be happy but I don't know what, I don't know what makes me happy. I mean I have no reason to be upset with my life I have a lot of good friends a good family and basically a good upbringing but something is dragging me down and I don't know what. No matter how much I shop or drink or party it's like theres this hole in my soul and I just don't know how to fill it...hmm well enough of that in more happy news my cousin flew in on Thursday and is staying with us for a week:) She's such a breathe of fresh air compared to the snotty rich spoiled little bitches that I am used to seeing around lovely Manalapan. This weekend was also mine and my sister's birthdays..yes now I am 20 and yes I am getting old.. so there was a lot of food a lot of drinking and a lot of cheesecake..totally feel like I gained like 50 pounds this weekend..o wel back to the diet which prob won't happen tomorrow because we're haveing ANOTHER bbq..yummy:/ I did get sum quality gifts, the usually dinero some cool clothes and a cute COACH wristlet from my cousin:)O yea and Diana finally came to Manalapan and discoveredd what rich spoiled little btiches I am forced to live with:) On a bitchy note as much as I love my family they are driving me insane..my dad = perfectionist..my sister = spoiled little bitch sometimes/my bff sometimes and my mom is driving me crazy..sometimes I think I'm gonna kill one of them or they're gonna kill me IDK whichever happens first..o well I go back to school in like a few weeks so things will cool then when I'm not home...ok this entry is like way long and I didn't even get into the stuff I actually did this summer, well I will post pics as soon as I finish the role of film in my camera..yes it takes me forever to finish a role because I either A) forget my camera or B) am too drunk to take pics..alrite everyone BUENAS NOCHES!!!!
xoxo Danielle <3<3
*There's gotta be more to life
than chasing out every temporary high to satisfy me
'Cause the more that I
trippin' up thinkin' there must be more to life
Well, there's life, but I'm sure
There's gotta be more*~Stacie Orrico..totally feeling that song right now
we write a thousand pages
they're torn and on the floor
headlights hammer the windows
were locked behind these doors
and we are never leaving
this place is part of us
and all these scenes repeating
are cold to the touch
my hands seem to deceive me
when I'm nervous or when I'm healthy.
the scenery's all drawn.
they hang here from the walls dear,
painting pictures, bleeding colors,
blanket the windows.
sometimes it gets so hard to breathe.
your eyes can see right through me.
these fights with your arms left beside.
one thing and one more says goodnight.
you've got the map come get to me.
these knuckles break before they bleed.
tear out these veins that own my heart.
this skin that wears your lasting marks.
i've built these walls come get to me, come get to me.
is this your lesson, a slight discretion,
the lines that keep you, the lines that sweep you.
lock the doors from the inside.
your face is so contagious, it wears announcements,
it leaves me breathless, i won't forget this.
let the walls have their say.
there's no conversation
words without remorse
and this television drowns the only source
wake from these dreams of you in my arms
to the staircase where you hold my heart
this place, these walls, mean everything to me.*~emery..I've never heard this song before but I saw the lyrics and found truth in them
Hey everyone I'm still alive I know I haven't updated in like forever but I've been busy and just haven't gotten a chance to really sit down and write an entry. I try and respond to my friends journals and community entries as best I can but I never really write an entry for myself. Well whats been going on..nothing much I have NO JOB which means NO MONEY yes I am going to be a very poor grl this semester:( I def shop TOO much so what little money I have gets spent..I am a bad grl who is a shopaholic. I spend most of my summer either with Rose and Natalie or shopping or all of the above. I also started ttalking to my friend Andrea from HS and I'm really happy about that because I missed her soo much she's the sweetest grl ever and she's going thru such a hard time right now that I wish I could help her more, I just really hope everything works out for her in the end. When I think about it all the petty bullshit soap opera drama in my life is nothing compared to what she is going thru right now. I've been doing a lot of thinking this summer and I am sooo uncertain with majoring in economics like I just switched and now I'm starting to have doubts:/ I seriousely worry about everything and I am going to drive myself insae..I'm worried about money, school whether I made a good decision yada yada yada..sometimes I'm like sooo sad and I can't even figure out why. I was talking ot Diana about this and she feels similiar it's kind of like I feel like if I do something I'll be happy but I don't know what, I don't know what makes me happy. I mean I have no reason to be upset with my life I have a lot of good friends a good family and basically a good upbringing but something is dragging me down and I don't know what. No matter how much I shop or drink or party it's like theres this hole in my soul and I just don't know how to fill it...hmm well enough of that in more happy news my cousin flew in on Thursday and is staying with us for a week:) She's such a breathe of fresh air compared to the snotty rich spoiled little bitches that I am used to seeing around lovely Manalapan. This weekend was also mine and my sister's birthdays..yes now I am 20 and yes I am getting old.. so there was a lot of food a lot of drinking and a lot of cheesecake..totally feel like I gained like 50 pounds this weekend..o wel back to the diet which prob won't happen tomorrow because we're haveing ANOTHER bbq..yummy:/ I did get sum quality gifts, the usually dinero some cool clothes and a cute COACH wristlet from my cousin:)O yea and Diana finally came to Manalapan and discoveredd what rich spoiled little btiches I am forced to live with:) On a bitchy note as much as I love my family they are driving me insane..my dad = perfectionist..my sister = spoiled little bitch sometimes/my bff sometimes and my mom is driving me crazy..sometimes I think I'm gonna kill one of them or they're gonna kill me IDK whichever happens first..o well I go back to school in like a few weeks so things will cool then when I'm not home...ok this entry is like way long and I didn't even get into the stuff I actually did this summer, well I will post pics as soon as I finish the role of film in my camera..yes it takes me forever to finish a role because I either A) forget my camera or B) am too drunk to take pics..alrite everyone BUENAS NOCHES!!!!
xoxo Danielle <3<3
*There's gotta be more to life
than chasing out every temporary high to satisfy me
'Cause the more that I
trippin' up thinkin' there must be more to life
Well, there's life, but I'm sure
There's gotta be more*~Stacie Orrico..totally feeling that song right now