what a week
Last night I went over Dre's house so that we can talk. THe out come of that was that he can not do this many more. Meaning that he can no through this with me. I know I can't do it anymore either. I do realize that I expect alot from him I know that he is working on it but some times I feel like he is not doing it fast enought. But today I was suppost to go over there and give him the things of his that I have and I was going to get my things from his house. My mom told me to wait and think about it. I do know know what there is to think about he can't do this anymore so there is nothing for me to think about.
With all of the things thathas been going on with Dre and I this week I have had a crappy week already. I have also been mean to John casue of it. I had told him that each night this week I have cried my self to sleep. And like he always say that the reason was becasue he was not there. This morning i called him to tell him that I was sorry for being mean. Then he said sometihng that made me thing. "There is not reason why you should be talking to yoor ex unless you have kids together (which we don't for anyone who have to think about that). You were fine untill he came back in the picture. And becasue of him you have had a bad week. There is not reason why you should be going throught that." What really got me wasn when he said, "Do I not make you happy? You make me feel like I'm not going my job. I know that I can not come and see you right now but I have been going alot of jobs so that I can get a new car." Right before I meant him sone one pulled a gun out on him and took his car. He wants to have a new car by July, but he thinks that with all the work he has been doing he can get on in a week or so. Even if John is not the one for me I think that he will be the one that will halp me get over Dre.
The other day I saw Shawn at the gas station. He looked really good. For some reason I have been ahving dreams bout being with him. Hopefull we can hang out more. He claims that we are but we will see. He has to ask me to hang out since I do not talk to anymore in Hartland any more. So we will see.
~Joslyn~
With all of the things thathas been going on with Dre and I this week I have had a crappy week already. I have also been mean to John casue of it. I had told him that each night this week I have cried my self to sleep. And like he always say that the reason was becasue he was not there. This morning i called him to tell him that I was sorry for being mean. Then he said sometihng that made me thing. "There is not reason why you should be talking to yoor ex unless you have kids together (which we don't for anyone who have to think about that). You were fine untill he came back in the picture. And becasue of him you have had a bad week. There is not reason why you should be going throught that." What really got me wasn when he said, "Do I not make you happy? You make me feel like I'm not going my job. I know that I can not come and see you right now but I have been going alot of jobs so that I can get a new car." Right before I meant him sone one pulled a gun out on him and took his car. He wants to have a new car by July, but he thinks that with all the work he has been doing he can get on in a week or so. Even if John is not the one for me I think that he will be the one that will halp me get over Dre.
The other day I saw Shawn at the gas station. He looked really good. For some reason I have been ahving dreams bout being with him. Hopefull we can hang out more. He claims that we are but we will see. He has to ask me to hang out since I do not talk to anymore in Hartland any more. So we will see.
~Joslyn~